Happy Raya Y'all

Just recently came back from MMU Cyberjaya, after squatting there like a 'setinggan' for 6 days (had to wait for my sister to finish her lectures and bla..bla..before flying down to JB)..^-^

Overall, the 'homestay'@'hostel stay' was pretty awesome!!!

Played with fireworks with my MMU peeps in a park nearby and was nearly caught by cops 

=> Duhh!! You CAN'T play FIREWORKS in the LOCAL PARK!!! For god's sake..of all the things in the world we played that there..hahaha..luckily we had our way..and sweet talk our way out..wooot

Ate sorts of food for break-fasting and bloat my way out
=> We ate  buffet in Alamanda, Domino's pizza, stalls, bazaar food., junk food.I swear to god...Im getting fat by just staying there..these guys really know how to hunt  good food..Honest!!

Learning 'the' IT @ Art talk

=> I must admit, I only thought that only Engineering guys, or TESL peeps had their 'it' language...Ohoo..I was soo wrong people..Staying there for almost a week made me realize that they too have 'the' language..Most of the time, when I tend to engage in a conversation with them..I always get laughed off..T__T..not my fault tho..different wavelength I might say..but they're very nice people..learned a thing or two tho =)

Engaging in wacky moments

=> Just imagine, we went to a bazaar in Bangi, to food hunt for our break-fasting..mission accomplished there..Then, decided to go to Dengkil to eat at the infamous Malee Restaurent (the food there is soo 'kick' man)..mission failed..full house..plus, it was Maghrib already (of course it must be full house by then..duhh)..Had to go back to Putrajaya..decided to eat at Mak Tam Restaurent..mission failed..also full house..by this time, we were all pissed off+hungry..Last resort, went back to MMU Cyberjaya, and ate at HB1..mission accomplished..hahahaha..see the long journey we had to endure..just to find a spot..sigh..but it was fun nevertheless..haha..

Making sweet memories

=> Due to Raya fever, the kids hung Raya lights outside their whostel windows to liften up the mood..some of them only could be back to their respective hometown a 2, 3 days before Raya due to hectoc schedule of lectures and loads of assignments..I really feel your pain guys..some of the unfortunate ones, could only be back a day before Raya (which would be today)..balme on sold out tickets, assignments not yet passed up and etc..

Setting up my blogshop

=> Beacuse I was so bored of my mind..I don't have anything better to do than checking my Facebook every 24-7..which spells L.A.M.E....I revamp my old forgotten blog to a blogshop..Within 2 days, the site was revamp and refurbished with a more friendly layout I might add..clean, and simple..I'd post up the link once my sight is up and running..which would hopefully be after Raya =)..Do wish me luck on this..I SOO want to clear out my closet..my mum's been nagging me not stop about all  the nice clothes Im buying, but NOT wearing them..sigh..baaaaad habit T___T..

All in all, I'd like to take this oppurtunity to extend my Raya wishes..

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin

Be safe on the roads..

Take quickie breaks in between the travelling..

Have a cup of Nescafe or Milo or Horlicks, whatever to spiff you up.. ^O^

Fwaaahhhh

Am currently setting up an online shop a.k.a blogshop to clear out my closet..

Mama's freaking out cause my wardrobe is JAM-PACKED with sweaters, not-worn tops and etc..etc..

She freaked out real BAD!!!

''Qla!!!! Don't you dare buy another piece of top unless you clear out your wardrobe!!! Ya hear me!!!''

Dang~

Im soo, toast T^T..

Yesh, I have the tendency or habit I might add, buying new, adorable, girlish clothes and NOT wear them..

Yet, I still wore the SAME old, BLACK top/shirt/whatever sweaters I could find..

Not my fault...They are just sooooooooooooo comfy to wear..

Aiihhh...I'll be damned..>_<

If Only You Knew, Would You Care

Its been a while since I post up something here..
I was waaaayyy too busy with presentations, sleeping in between classes and struggling for multiple tests..
As finals is just 3 days around the corner, it didn't make things easier for me..

Just came back recently from JB due to a week of study week..
Yet, I came back to campus earlier..
Decided to have my last minute struggle in campus rather than at my own comfort of home..
*as if I'll be mugging my ass out in front of the ohhh-so-speedy internet connection lappy*

These past few days, had been one roller coaster emotional ride for me..Realizing things and accepting them without the heart to do so..The pain was very very intense..

It really felt like I was stabbed in the ___________<----- FILL IN THE BLANKS AS YOU WISH

Im tired of empty promises
Im tired of faking smiles
Im tired of adapting
Im tired of making people happy
Im tired of being unselfish
Im tired of giving people hopes
Im tired of being fake
Im tired of reaching out the unreachable
Im tired of being strong
Im tired of everyone
Im tired of myself

Some people tend to say Im just stressed out due to my finals..
Tell you what mister, AM NOT..

I tried to be selfish
I tried to learn to decline
I tried to reach out for help
I tried to be what people want me to be
I tried to give my best to everyone
I tried to love everyone I loathe
I tried to smile when tears threaten to fall
I tried to not burden others
I tried to make people smile
I tried to make people felt loved
I tried to love myself

I did..I really did..
As I sat on the grass, crying, reaching out for help..
Nobody saw me..
Not even a glance..
Nobody even heard my plead of helplessness..
I often wonder why..
Maybe, I was just a mere joke to everyone all this while..

Just a piece of pawn on their chess board..
Waiting to be disposed anytime they please..

Nursing my aching heart..
I could only comfort myself..
''Its ok my dear, the pain would go away''
''You are special, don't cry for them''
''You are not alone, you have yourself, you're never alone''

True, some tend to reach out to me..
But sadly, the moment I grab hold to them..
They disappeared..
Leaving me behind..
Holding on to empty promises the made and shattered dreams..

People might think I'm just full of crap..
An emotionally unstable girl..
I don't give a damn anymore..
You could say whatever you'd like..
As long it pleases you..
It's good enough for me..
Be my guest..
I'll just mind my own misery..

I'll hold on until I couldn't move on..
Until then, this is what I am..
A girl which hides behind the tears of a clown..