We Accept It As It Is

Assalamualaikum..

Hello everyone..just got back from JB today ..
Grandma was admitted into ICU last Saturday, and all of my siblings gathered back home on Friday for a visit..
It was a really heart breaking moment to see the one you really cared and love lay there helplessly..
The Grandma I knew was an iron lady, had always managed to pull through practically everything..

Seeing her helplessly on the bed motionless, made me practically unable to churn the fact that the person whose laying on the bed was her..
No matter how much I've tried to control myself, the tears kept on swelling in my eyes, and drops unconsciously now and then..

It had been an emotionally tiring period for me last week..had to push myself to go to classes, forced myself to eat..
I was practically a walking zombie..
All I ever think of  was my Grandma..and how her condition was..
Every now and then Mama would call up late nights and early mornings, crying..
I guess it took a toll in all of us, as a family..

I was literally on the verge of breaking down, that I often found myself sobbing quietly in between classes, in between phone calls and in between meals..
I lost my weight unconsciously..

Dragged myself to endure the 4 hours drive back to hometown..
And on Saturday itself, I was temporarily warded in the Emergency ward the same hospital as my Grandma..
Why?
I was having continuous high fever for almost 9 days before..and it gets worse every day..
With the lack of proper meals and the pile of stress, I guess its no surprise I didn't land in there sooner..

Had a blood test and chest X-Ray and I was diagnosed by the doctor to be lacking of Potassium, white blood cells and red blood cells..
Simply put, the level of salt in my body is below average of a normal person T___T
So, I was warded and put on IV Drips for around 4 hours..
Because I was stubborn, and refused to be admitted (cause I had classes on Monday and I cant afford to miss it) =D

Amidst everything that had happened, my whole family gathered on Sunday (20 May 2012) to celebrate Ayah's 57th birthday =)
Im glad we managed to stick together through thick and thin to leap the hurdles that happened in our lives..

I hope and prayed to Allah that my Grandma would get well soon, and everything would be better for all of us..
Insyaallah =)

P/S - May this month of Rejab brings us more grace and good offerings in this life and after, Amin

Sigh

When death looks straight at you, to take away the ones you loved..would you EVER be ready?

Hospitals and Clouds

I always have a soft spot for cloudy and rainy days..beats me..

Its just that when the clouds tuns grey, it's as if all my problems would flutter away..

And when it rains, it's as if all my worries would be washed away..

I immediately felt calmer and refreshed..

Skeptical??

Try finding me on campus or wherever I might be, the library or cafe in classes and observe my behavior..

I would be more energetic, hyper active and extra cheerful during these times =)

So, if you would likely to request the most outrageous things for me to do, I'd likely to say YES =D

Today, I'll be visiting my Ophthalmologist for my yearly check up.

My eyesight isn't really in good conditions recently..

Despite that I was involved in theater for the couple of months, my eyes are exposed to excessive bright lighting and spotlights..

Which is actually a big no-no to my eyes..

But, trying to being professional, I endured it as much as I possibly could..

The only thing I could do was to ask the lighting department to dim the spotlight's brightness..

And when the day ends, I would usually get throbbing headaches and mild nausea late making it difficult for me to breathe and sleep..

At night, I had to place wet towels on my eyes to cool the burning sensation..

Usually when this happens, it actually means that I had strained my eyes to the max..

And If this repeatedly happen, the chances of me getting blind is very high..

 

It was very painful to endure..

Sometimes, when the pain was too much to bear, I'd cried to sleep.. 

So, hopefully, today's eye examination won't bring bad news..

That would be the last thing that I need right now..

Insyaallah =)

Have a nice day ahead >_<

Uhh Hello?!?

Hello earthlings!!

Its been almost an exact 2 years since I posted up anything in this humble blog of mine..
Many things happened recently, and I guess one would always turn to their most trusted source of outlet..

The dusty ol' blog =) 

Tho I know that it won't be that much of a private thing where this blog of mine is in public domain which is research-able through browsers, I just seemed not to mind..
I just needed a place to pour all my feelings out, and not bottle it up before I go coo coo!!
Like a dear friend always said,

 '' Even well lid bottles burst when its full, so, try not to be one..Its NOT a pretty sight when it does ''

So, I'll try to keep up posting my thoughts, views, and how life had been for the past 2 years..
I'm not expecting much of an audience to gibe me a standing ovation..
I don't expect too, as to be given credits as I a fully prepared to be criticized and be plunged to deep of the abyss..

DO I sound depressing??
Yes, maybe I do..
After all, with all that's happening around me..
I'm not even sure who I am anymore..

Too bad..

Quote of The Day :
The toughest part of letting go is realizing the other person already did...

I Bought The Tickets!!!!

Hoyeaaahhhh =D

Finally bought the tickets at the pre-sale at Time Square yesterday =)

'' I'm all smiling ear to ear with the redemption card =D ''

What did I bought?

I bought U-Kiss tickets!!!!

Although it costs a fortune, it's somewhat a treat for my birthday and all the hard work of studying =D

*claps claps*

I couldn't attend VGL this weekend, as I have to cram my studies for the incoming tests..

 '' Seeing the boys LIVE in action =D ''

Never mind, at least I have a replacement concert now =D


P/S - My first EVER concert in my 22 years of living..feeling all psyched up and excited all ready..I don't give a hoot if you think they are lame..they're STILL effing rich..Are you??..Bwwweekkk =D

Going For Re-Checkup

Throat is still throbbing..

Going for re-checkup again today after supplies of antibiotics had been cut out..

Ohh..the agony...

Am taking the MC for the day...

Ohhh well =)

Until then..

Throat PMS-ing

This is by far, the worst ever sore throat in my life history..

It's effing itchy..

It makes me want to scratch my throat out...

It 'emits' gooey greenish phlegm whenever it likes..

My antibiotics supply is running low..

And it's still not getting any better..

Conclusion????

I'm super screwed T^T

Still Recovering

With all the sickness floating around..

I still can manage..

Currently staying alone in the hostel..

Doesn't irk me anyways..

Used to it...

Humm..wonder what I'll be having today for lunch..

Guess it would be porridge again..

Haven't eaten anything solid for the past 4 days...

Can feel the body getting lighter =D

P/S - My tonsils are getting bigger T^T

Dying

I am officially down!!!

My tonsil is killing me..

It made me down with high fever..

I HAD to skip the second class of ESL which came after Literature class this morning..

It was TOO MUCH for me to bear..

I was wearing thick sweaters, but still, I felt cold on the insides, and SUPER HOT on the outside =(

It was a relief that the report on Pengajian Malaysia had been handed in earlier this morning..

I had to literally drag my way back to the hostel as I didn't drive to the faculty..

Brought some sufficient amount off Fried Mee Hoon to last through the night..

Felt like going to the clinic but was TOO sick to drive..

I can't even see properly as my eyes were hot and watery..

Some food, Panadol and Rhino Cooling Water should be sufficient for now..

Until then, I'm off tto la-la land..

P/S - Can't even finish my usual portion of breakfast..Ate only a quarter of it..Wow..my fever is REALLY bad =(..Wondering how many days it would take to recover..

Tonsils

I am having tonsil!!!!!

Well, just ONE tonsil...

But still, the agony is like having 3, or 4 T^T

I can't swallow properly, to even drink plain water can be such a pain in the arse..

I get irritated more faster *ya laaahh, I ate more less than I usually do*

Am having so many pending assignments to be done..

Slowly..slowly, Im crawling to settle them all one by one..

With the upcoming play in 2 weeks time, this month is going to be one heck of a ride..

Whining would NOT be tolerated =D

Got to start typing away my report on the Historical Places review..

P/S - Dear tonsil, please go away, I need my power boost of concentration..You can come back visit me after that ok =D

Sigh?

Is going to meet up the folks at Concorde Shah Alam for some family issues..

Too tired to drive..

Am having a sore throat..

Saw some few new bruises on the legs and body...

Makes me think I lack sufficient nutrients in my body =D

Pffftt...

Right~ =D

 '' I need an umbrella just in case the weather gets out of hand ''

Excessive Bakso Is Hazardous

I'm down with a sore throat..

Why?

Last night, I had Bakso for dinner accompanied with Lime Juice..

'' Bakso @ Meatball Vermicilli  Soup ''

Because it was raining heavily, I wanted something hot and spicy..

Due to my excessive, too excessive kamikaze brain, I poured in THREE..

YES!!!! THREE!!! of the SPICY SAUCE into my Bakso..

How did my Bakso looked like in the end??

I swear I couldn't see the very bottom of it..

Hahahahaha..

The food was surely damn HOT and SPICY I tell you =)

I was sweating like heck when its still rains outside..hahahaha

And now, Im down with a sore throat..

Me, and my genius antics...

Pfftt =D

So, much for being 22 =D

Im Older And Wiser Babeh

Heyya..heyya...

Phewww...It's the day after the big day already =D

I had the most memorable birthday ever of my life..

On that day alone, me and Mr Rascal went out for some food hunting all around KL..

We ate a LOT..well, it's me all the time anyways =D

I ate...*drumrolls drr drr drr*..

1. Taco's + Nachos
2. Chicken Vermicelli Soup Noodle (Mi Sup Ayam)
3. Char Kuey Teow
4. Hainan Chicken Rice
5. Cendol
6. Egg Rojak

Yes.. I ate all of them ALL OF THEM =D

Ehehehehehehe..I have a bottomless tummy..

Mr Rascal was sweet enough to drive me practically everywhere.. =D *happy happy*

Went to our usual hanging out spot, Ikano+Ikea+e@Curve+Curve...

Hanged out at the pet shop in Ikano for ages..

Ogling at the cute cats and dogs..

'' I want a dog!!!! Can???? The Doberman Pinscher looks cute =D '' I said to Mr Rascal

'' Sure..sure..I'll get you one *pats my head* '' he replied

Thank you for sticking up with my childish behavior =D

I had many beautiful beatiful wishes from my friends, colleagues and facebook friends..

Thanks guys, I really appreciate it..

P/S - I have a presentation today..Hope It'll run smoothly =D..Mr Rascal bought me a book called Fish..I love it..Thank you =D

My tummy is getting sick from all the food I ate last night..bwahahahahaha

Its Nearing The Big Day

A lot had happened lately..

Such drama..

I tend to ignore it anyways..as always..

Ain't worth my time..

I learned a lot from my previous experiences..

I tend to be nice once in a while *well, most of the time actually =D*, but I COULD also give cold shoulders sometimes too =)

Tomorrow's the big day..It doesn't bother me that much tho..

I mean, birthdays are just birthdays..

They come and go every year..

Maybe it's a bit sad as the number keeps increasing, but heck, it's just numbers..duhhh...

It doesn't really matter if I am celebrating it or not..

Usually, when the so called special day arrives, my tummy would churn like heck, and I feel like vomiting T^T

Why? Im clueless a well here..

Nervousness? Eeeecckkk..why would I??

Guess I need some time to let myself loose..

Been tired lately..

Imagine if I hadn't taken all the supplements and vitmains...

I'll practically fall dead asleep on the floor from exhaustion before past noon!!!

Life's been one roller coaster ride..

No surprise tho, its my final semester, and chunks of works keep piling, and deadlines around the corner to meet..

My poor poor Lappy-chan *my lappy as you can guess* nearly DIED..NEARLY!!!

Im glad you din't die on me baby, or I'll drop dead on the spot!!!

All the assignments and notes in there =D

My birthday wish this year is for everyone to stop giving me major headaches for me to decide their goddamn lives..*me, giving advice is fine with me..me, deciding what to do so on and so forth for YOUR LIFE is a BIG NO NO*

Tired la weyhhh...

Sounds selfish??

I well DESERVE to be selfish don't you think???

P/S - I love myself and I miss my girls..Oiii Teha, Nadt, Jess, Yaya when are we gonna catch some girly moments together????..enuff said =D

Im Beat

Heyya!!!

Just came back from Kuantan..

Vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha..kidding, it was for my research paper...well, still, could be considered as a vacation..

Would be updating more often after this..

Been abandoning my poor dusty blog for a while now..

What to do..I've been busy =D

Later y'all =)

VGL tickets Are Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want those effing tickets!!!

Sob..sob..

Well, it doesn't cost THAT much as I was expecting..

The cheapest seats would be RM83, while the uber ones costs RM283...

Could someone donate the tickets for me?

I'd be happy =D

Would be smashing my piggy bank soon.. =)

Tickets just went on sale today...Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Yeah, Im here, Im Here

Its been a while since I post up anything on this dusty page..

*cough*cough*

I've been very very very busy..

Had been juggling with personal problems, study time, and massive loads of assignments, presentations and tests..

It's all in a life of a student  =)

Checked my calender and..damn..

My birthday is just around the corner..

Made me realized..that I forgot my own birthday T^T..

Lame =___=''  *sob*sob*

Birthday's are just birthday's..no difference to me..

It would fall on Thursday, so I'm guessing, I'll be stuck in class and swimming my way through the piles of assignments..

Oh, some even had asked me what I wanted for birthday..*if it wasn't for you guys, I'd totally forgotten my birthday was around the corner*

Well, I WANT.................................

Uhhhh..

I don't know!!!! T^T   

I don't really want anything...

I have needs, but when it comes to wants, I'm a totally utterly a dimwit...

I may ramble I want a PSP, or I want a new laptop, but I don't need those stuff I guess..

I can manage to use whatever I've got..

Call me plain if you want me too..

But I just don't care..

I ain't going to nag if I don't have a fancy handbag..

I ain't going to whine, if I don't dine in famous restaurants..

I ain't going to get mad if I don't receive super expensive presents for my birthday..

Simply said, give me something I CAN USE =D

Easy right =)

Well, it's my off-day today, no class and all...

Later, am going to bazaar with my housemates =)

P/S - Will try to update more =D

On Hiatus Again

Would be on hiatus for a while..

Sorry guys, I have too many things on my plate right now...

That would spill any moment soon..

Damn, coping is seriously HARD work.. T^T

All the drama is gonna make my head split...

Registration course on the line...
Certain people giving me fucked up time..ignore!!! =D
Assignments piling up..

FELT LIKE STABBING SOMEONE IN THE GUT WITH A KNIFE

Give me some space would you????

I can't hardly breath..

Its bad enough my boat isn't 'stable' enough =__=''

Stop, for once, stop leaning on me for 5 minutes!!!

Just 5 goddamn minutes..sob..sob..

FCUK!!!!!

Success Generate RM100 Just By Log In FB

I just generated RM100 by just updating my Facebook status..

Neat huh!!!

My small step towards financial freedom =)

Alhamdulillah, my efforts had paid off =D

Anyone interested?

Im finding enthusiastic people to pass down my knowledge

I'll be glad to guide you..

If I can do it, so can you!!!

P/S - Anyone interested? Msg me through my FB or email =) I'll try to entertain your curiousity A.S.A.P

Out~

Shining In Style Y'all

I have an interesting uber cool website I've found on the net recently...

It's a JEWELLARY ONLINE STORE!!!

WAIT!!!! Hear me out..

It's NO ORDINARY shop I tell you..

I was skeptical of the site itself at first, but when I saw the WHOLE range of jewellary, be it customed or from the range itself..I personally FELL in LOVE with each and everyone of them..

The shop specializes in cultured freshwater and saltwater pearls, precious and semi-precious gemstones, and precious metals..

They have a WIDE range of RINGS, PENDANTS, and EARRINGS..yeayy..

Just look at some of my personal favourites =D

Black + White Enamel Eternity Band

Amethyst Wonder Pendant

Jet Black Enamel Breeze Ring

Pearl Drop Earrings

What I love about this store is they are shopper friendly..In what way???

Well, for starters, they educate buyers on the Jewellary Basics..

Then, they also expose buyers on the History of Jewellary, Gemstones Guide, Metals Guide, How to store Jewellary, How to clean Jewellary and the MOST IMPORTANT of all, the Jewellary Buying Guides..

Neat right? I personally think you don't have to be a buyer yourself to then know these kind of things..

It's no harm checking out this uber cool website right..

And the price is AFFORDABLE too..They even SLASHED OUT PRICES for buyers to own their favourite piece =)

Here's the link for the shop CLICK ME =D..

You could do me a BIG favour by signing up the competition =)
Do tell me your favourites after visiting the site ok..

P/S - A hanky panky easy way out site that offers jewellary for those special moments!!! *pssst, especially Valentine's around the corner*

Out~