Showing posts with label Emosi. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emosi. Show all posts

Friday, April 27, 2012

I'm So Random

Just something that popped my mind =')

Yeah, sometimes, relationships aren't meant to last, but at least you have memories that keeps you smiling now and then..

Sometimes, when you loved someone too much, you just gotta let it go..
No matter how much it would hurt you in the process..

Memories are sacred, don't bother to erase them from your heart..
It enriches your life, and makes you driven to be a much more better person for the next =)

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REMINISCENCE


Mutual Respect
Exchanging glances, Unnoticed nods and Subtle smiles

Admiration
Handshakes, Exchanging numbers and Friendly conversations

Love
Own little world, Trust, Adore, Intimate touches, Loving gazes and Passionate embraces

Sadness
Problems, Ignorance and Blames

Pain
Yells, Taunts, Curses, Immaturity and Tears 

Denial
Embracing facts, Backstabbers, Judgements, Provokes, Lies and Isolation

Anger

Hatred, Blames, Comparisons, Loneliness and Decisions

Separation
Hollow, Sadness, Despised, Hatred, Fear, Agony and Pain

Desperation
Bitterness, Fallen, Endless tears, Regrets, Reality and Guilt

Remorse
Reflection, Acceptance, Grief, Hope, Prayers, Forgiveness and Letting go

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Quote of The Day :
When you want to talk, but you can't trust anyone; talk to God


Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Going For Re-Checkup

Throat is still throbbing..

Going for re-checkup again today after supplies of antibiotics had been cut out..

Ohh..the agony...

Am taking the MC for the day...

Ohhh well =)

Until then..




Thursday, April 1, 2010

Dying

I am officially down!!!

My tonsil is killing me..

It made me down with high fever..



I HAD to skip the second class of ESL which came after Literature class this morning..

It was TOO MUCH for me to bear..

I was wearing thick sweaters, but still, I felt cold on the insides, and SUPER HOT on the outside =(

It was a relief that the report on Pengajian Malaysia had been handed in earlier this morning..

I had to literally drag my way back to the hostel as I didn't drive to the faculty..

Brought some sufficient amount off Fried Mee Hoon to last through the night..

Felt like going to the clinic but was TOO sick to drive..

I can't even see properly as my eyes were hot and watery..

Some food, Panadol and Rhino Cooling Water should be sufficient for now..

Until then, I'm off tto la-la land..

P/S - Can't even finish my usual portion of breakfast..Ate only a quarter of it..Wow..my fever is REALLY bad =(..Wondering how many days it would take to recover..



Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Does Time Really Heals The Pain?

After a few days of intensive training, finally, the play was staged yesterday!!!

Beauty & The Beast =)

It was the best moment ever..

After the play, I was overwhelmed by relief..

I should right?

We started practicing for the final act from 2.30pm till 7pm NON-STOP!!

Talk about craziness for perfection =)

Naaaaahhh...we just wanted it to go out smoothly as we want to =)

But in truth, when the curtain rises, everything went haywire..hahaha..

Forgetting lines..

Too much pauses..

And inaudible speech towards the audience (yes, they were audiences)..

But hey, flaws are intentional..we a re just a bunch of amateurs trying to perform.. =)

The lecturer was proud of our efforts and commented on us..

But sadly, the downfall was (well, rather for me of course) I had a 'slight misunderstanding' with someone in particular..

It was soo bad that 'that person' didn't even want to look at my face..

It's alright, I forgive you..

I never blamed anyone for it..except myself..

I'll try to work it out soon..

Honestly, it's the worst feeling ever..

But, in the end, I had to continuously smile and just don't make others feel sorry or guilty towards me..

It's alright guys..I understand the situation..

I really don't know what to do..I have literally no one to talk to..

I kept everything to myself..And just smile..

Hoping the pain would subside..Hoping..

Hope..

A funny word..

I wonder how much times I've hoped before..

How many times I've hoped and repeatedly been let down..

Im tired...

I'll just wait here in this spot..and not move..

I'll walk again when I feel ready..

That day would come..

I hope..



Out~




Monday, January 4, 2010

Looooooooong Week Ahead

Woke up super duper early today..

6 am!!!! =D

And it was super freaking cold....Brrrrrrr *imagine Coca Cola shivering style =D*

It rained cats and dogs the previous night..

Studied for tomorrow's reading test after Subuh prayers..

I'll try to update more often..I'LL TRY..why??

Because I'll be having a very very loooooooooooooong week this week..

NO...NO..

I'm NOT exaggerating  y'all =D

Ok, let me share my list to do things for this week shall we =)

TUESDAY 050110
Test 2 (Academic Reading Skills)
Presentation-Musical Play (Phonology)

WEDNESDAY 060110
Test 2 (Phonology)
Test 1+ Test 2 + Article Review (Intermediate English Grammar)

THURSDAY 070110
Test 2 (Listening+Speaking Skills)
Presentation (Listening+Speaking Skills)

Yeahh..I know T^T

It would be one hell of a week..

And to top things off, my finals would begin on the 110110..

I'm scared okey....VERY VERY SCARED =D

Can't afford to screw this semester's finals..

Chaiyo..chaiyo..




P/S - New year resolution 2010 shall be postponed to after the finals..hehehe =D

Out~




Thursday, December 31, 2009

Let's Reminisce 2009 Shall We?

Yeah..I know..

It's new year's eve!!!

I remembered it was just like yesterday 2009 kicks in..

And here I am, ushering in 2010 in and passing 2009 by =D

Well, how's my 2009 you say???

For starters, to sum it all up..

I could say..NO..what I meant to say~

IT WAS ONE HELL OF A RIDE!!!!

Follow me for a brief glimpse of my 2009 if you love to stick around  to know me better =)

FEBRUARY
= The most crucial time of my life..I was diagnosed with Acute Sinusitis@Rhinosinusitis..Was admitted into 2 different hospitals (Penang General Hospital = 4 days and Johor Specialist Hospital = 6 days ) and underwent an FESS surgery to remove the polyp that was literally stuck somewhere behind the base of my brain (sounds cool eyh?..NOT T^T..It hurts like hell people!!)


'' Lookie here!!! Me cool hand got stabbed..Want to be like me?? =D ''

MAY
= Start of a new life...Turning over a new leaf..call it whatever you want..Was accepted to do a one year foundation course into a varsity..Finally doing TESL..Something I've always wanted..Met new people..Had new housemates..Learned to be more accepting, more responsible, and learning step by step not to look back that frequent..For the first time, I slowed down in my life of rushness to get everything perfect, and try to enjoy life as it is, bit by bit..Accepting sincerely, people are not always perfect like we want them to be =D


 '' My housemates + me on campus celebrating The Mooncake Festival ''


JUNE
= Met someone new..After 6 months being widowed..Hahaha..Describing him??? He loves to entertain me =D..Is that enough??..Love you bunches Mr Rascal..For this coming 2010, I wish you the best of luck in your studies, with paintball you adore soo much, and not forgetting your COD4 frenzy battles with fellow Freedom Fighter Force (FFF) <3


'' Me and Mr Rascal..May we reach our goals in life!! Amin =D ''

JULY
= I got a present from my cat, Suden!!!! No words could describe the 'special' moment that was given..See the picture yourself =D Nonetheless, I STILL LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE SUDEN<3



'' No biggie Mom!!! It's just a scratch =) ''


 '' Or maybe not T^T..Ouchhhhhh...Got scarred for life..Ohh well =) ''

 OCTOBER
= I obtained my first semester results and it was AMAZING!!! Alhamdulillah..CGPA 3.4..It's a good start..Proud of myself..See!!! I'm not stupid..I can excel if I want to =)..Gotta work extra hard for the next incoming finals which would start on 110110..Suddenly, the dream of studying abroad is beyond reach...Maintain..maintain.. =) I'm gonna do my family proud..NO MORE BLUNDERS!!!! Yeahhhh



'' Yeahhh!!! Kiss my flunks goodbye mister..I'm gonna soar the skies soon =D ''

NOVEMBER
= Went back to celebrate Raya Hajj with family..Its been a while since the whole lot gathered as one happy family =D..Although it was short, it was certainly memorable =) I love my family..Won't trade them for anything..pronto.. =D


 '' Family is like watermelon...uhh..I think soo =D..Sweet and juicy and big..yummy *no idea what I'm blabbing about..maybe I'm just hungry*~ hahaha ''

 DECEMBER
= Well, its a pretty hectic month for me I might say, brought back Savvy-chan to campus...Brought 'him' for a spin..Its good to drive 'him' back...Love you Savvy-chan <3 I promise to take care of you >3<..

Would be busy preparing for my finals that would start on 110110 until 140110..Wish the best of luck for me..I pray to Allah 2010 would bring prosperous to my whole family, loved ones, and friends...

Let us be more than what we are..Pushing boundaries shall we =)

Ohh...I have to work on my new year resolution soon...

I'll share once I've complete it..

Until then..

WELCOME 2010!!! 
THANK YOU, AND GOODBYE 2009 FOR EVERYTHING =D

YOU SHALL BE DEARLY MISSED FOR YOU TAUGHT ME VALUEABLE LESSONS ON LIFE =)

Out~


Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I Can't Sleep Just Thinking Of You

This fella is making me crazy..

I can't sleep of not think of him T^T



Out~



Monday, December 21, 2009

Being Nice Sometimes Doesn't Pay Much

Read the title?

Enough said..






Out~


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

OmgWtfBbq!!!!!!

Yesterday's Phonology Stand-Up Comedy presentation was an utter disaster!!!!!!!!!

I feel like stabbing myself with a pocket knife there and then and pray for a truck to hit me next..

Im not trying to be dramatic or so..

Picture this..

Youre in front of a MASSIVE crowd consisting of approximately 60, 70, more or less pairs of eyes..

Ohh, and not forgetting another 3 set of eyes whose judging your every moves...

Yes, the lecturers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to top it off, it was raining heavily, windy, and I was literally screaming my head off delivering the jokes..

It was freaking hard because it was done in the Rotunda (well, its a some sort of open space hall in the middle of the faculty..the heart of the building if you might say)

I was nervous as heck..

And I do not know if my pronunciation or annunciation was correct...

Well,  its over by then, so, no use worrying about it eh =D

The lecturer was super pissed off at the class after the whole presentation was over..

We were practically 'deep-fried' by him..

Well, couldn't blame him..

Somehow, we sort of made him ashamed in front of the other lecturers..

The presentation was 'contaminated' by some dirty jokes by irresponsible people...

For god's sake!!!!!!!!!!!!!  The guy reminded us NOT to NUMEROUS times!!!!

Which part of a dumb-ass are you????

Sheeessshhh..thanks to you, the next class thinks we are 'dirty' people..

And the lecturer would probably FAIL most of us in this task...

Bravo!!! Idiot..

Well, the next 2 weeks would be a roller coaster ride for us all..

In line, news-casting, singing, and musical drama..and that alone is for Phonology..

Not forgetting the tests, the up-coming public speaking, and etc..etc..

Gotta perform better for the rest!!!..

Chaiyo!!!!

P/S - I need to consume more junk-food to soothe the nervousness..The cow-poop odour and palm trees isn't working anymore =D 

Out~




Saturday, December 5, 2009

Go Away Misery

Im getting dragged down every minute that went by..

Almost constantly hearing couples arguing here and there..

Its taking a toll on me..

I know its non of my business..

Roommates' fighting constantly with their partner..

And classmates' too..

I hate when people fight with each other..

Somehow, it radiates waves that are very negative all around them..

All those icky black hatred..

Somehow, I just wanted them to stop..

PLEASE!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!

Everytime I overheard their conversation, I feel light headed, nauseated and the feeling of puking is too high..

I'll be running out from either my classroom, or my own room to get some fresh air..

I myself, admits, of not having a somehow perfect relationship with my partner..

Telling myself not too depend too much on people..

Somehow, a mechanism of self defense for myself..call it selfish if you want to..I don't give a damn..

Maybe one would say, ''Hey, you learn by getting hurt''..

Well, that's all in the past, and its plain bullshit..

Maybe the PREVIOUS old me would be agreeing on the statement..but not the PRESENT me..

A long time ago, someone told me, that I won't be with anyone because I'm too independent..

Well, you're wrong, I am still standing strong after numerous downfalls because I am independent..I accept my failures and go on with my life..

Unlike you...you poor soul, whose still finding your purpose in life..

Unlike you..you poor soul, whose always constantly running away from reality in life..

Sometimes, when I saw my own reflection, I always ask what I wanted in my life..

Money?
Love?
Education?

Which?

Wants..Needs...

Completely 2 different things..

I know what I need..and I know my wants..

And right now, my list of wants is getting decreased..

I had to discard everything I DON'T NEED..

I had to..I don't want to.. But I had to..

I CAN'T afford another failure...NO MORE..

Maybe the so-called love can also wait..

Well, I can safely say that..

Love makes me tired..

TIRED...pronto..

I might become the on-call girlfriend..again..

Being 'summoned' only whenever needed..

Well, we'll just see what happens next..

I have too much things on my hands right now, assignments, tests, and managing the musical drama to even care about irrelevant things..

P/S - To my peeps, if you're unable to contact me, or I went missing all of a sudden, fret not, I just need some time to sort my works..I'd appreciate if you'd try to understand my decisions..Doesn't mean I am discarding you from my life, I just need some time..Thank you

Out~




Friday, December 4, 2009

My Raya Hajj

It's been a while since I last posted up anything..

Happy belated Raya Hajj everybody =D..

Hope your celebration was as hectic and fun as mine..

My celebration was a pretty jam-packed one I might add..

My flight which was supposedly depart at 9.10pm was delayed almost an hour later due to the previous flight from Macau was delayed for God-knows-what reason T^T..

Luckily beforehand, me and my sis, ok..I lied there..Me myself stuffed my tummy with a good load of food..We hang out for a couple of hours at Oldtown White Coffee, eating almost EVERYTHING on the menu...which later cost me up to RM60 (crazy, us people =D)

I reached home basically at 2am..YES!!!! 2am!!! I was soo freaking tired, had a quick hot bath and slept like a log..

Awaken on the day itself by Ayah at 5.30am..

Which means, I only had roughly 3 hours of sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sleep deprived on Raya Haji itself..pity me...

Had to go to Nenek's house to help her with the food preparations..

So, at 6am, on a chilly morning, I was driving on the almost empty roads with my sister (whose half-asleep) beside me...

We made a pretty heap loads of food on that day...

Nasi Tomato

Mi Rebus
Soto
Laksa
and a bit of Rendang...

I was too tired and preoccupied on that day, I was practically in my PJ's the whole day and NOT in my baju kurung..hahaha...

All in all, the celebration was a blast, going back home once in a while is fun =D

Can't wait for the next visit back home..toodles..

Out~

Friday, November 6, 2009

Shit Happens

So, here I am again..Posting up after abandoning my blog for quite some time..

Not that I don't have anything to write about..But I guess, I THINK I could handle all the measly stuff on my own..

Been a bit busy these couple of weeks..with reading materials, reviews and constant paper works..Not that Im complaining, cause I really wholeheartedly enjoyed doing them..

These couple of days, Ive been really irritated and annoyed at the same time with a couple of colleagues of mine..It starts as a small speck of problem, getting worse everyday unattended..

Frankly speaking, its taking a toll of me..

From downright everything..

Be it friendship, relationship and so on..

Yes, I am no GOD, I am no SAINT, and Im just human..

What irks me the most in my entire lifespan, is NOT the fact that I am plain dumb when it comes to shopping, or even NOT the fact that I am NOT that smart when it comes to figures...

NO...
Want to give it a guess??? Yes? No?

Well...Scroll on down then..

1. I LOATHE..yes..not HATE people..LOATHE..when people (am using general terms here, so, go figure) when you make all these lame excuses up to my face and thinking Im dumb..

HELLLLOOOOO!!!! Do I look like a blond bloke to you? Im sorry if you think I am...

Moving on..

2. I LOATHE...again, strong words....you think-youre-sooooo-good-of a-people makes empty promises and breaking them in the end...

Ohooo...Is that a fun thing to do I wonder..making promises here and there and thinking I won't remember each and single one of them..Ohhhh youre sooo dead wrong..

I dont mind..let me empasize that, I DON'T FUC**ING MIND if you can't do the things that you think could make me happy..Im contented with what I have...I really don't mind..and when I say I DON'T MIND, I REALLY DON'T!!!!...

Why laaaaaaaaaaaa...you have to make promises to me...

Its painful, everytime, you keep making promises and promises and promises...*sigh*..

Moving on again..

3. It ANNOYS the living daily lights of me when you screech, wail like a banshee and curse all the time!!!..
 Deshmit!!! I'll get deaf before I'm 23...where's your fucking manners la????

Don't your parents educate you well enough????

I DON'T GIVE A HOOT, if you would think Im a skema or so on..

Go blab somewhere else..

Im NOT saying IM TOO GOOD myself..or TOO PERFECT on everything..I admit that..but I try HARD to improve everything everyday..call me a perfectionist if you want to..I don't give a damn..

I can say soo much but yet, I can't do a thing about it..

If I CAN sacrifice my time and everything to prioritize what's FAR important..why can't you???

Is it that so important to abandon your responsibilities??? Grow up..please!!!!

I think Ive said that much, its suffocating, am heading to MMU now...

Out~

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Stay Out Of My Fucking Life

Yesh..Aku tau tajuk post aku pun dah kasar..Ape ke halnye???

Well, sejak aku masuk tempat baru nie, aku dah banyak belajar bersabar, sangat banyak banyak bersabar..Loosen up a bit, dan have fun with life..Ok, not entirely loosen up..I tend to worry about tedious thing, tapi that's just me I guess =)...

Sepatutnye, time macam nie, aku dah tidor, tapi sebab aku demam, dah 2 hari, mase tidur melimpah ruah, malam aku jadi burung hantu lah ape lagi...Padahal dah tidur dah tadi..Sebabjiran bangang kat atas rumah aku main lari2, aku dah terjage!! Desmit..Haiiihh..Sabar2 T___T..

Esok, aku presentation..Mengajar skills in writing pulak tue...memang terbaik!!..Dengan hidung aku macam empangan pecah..Idea nak bawak tuala good morning aku ke kelas esok, dan digalas di atas bahu nampak sangat tinggi..

Ahh..lenjan saje..Aku peduli ape orang nak cakap..Lalalala..

Time aku tengah2 sebok pecah kepale nak pikir ape bende nak buat untuk bahan mengajar aku, tetibe datang minah dari celah lubang mane, boleh selambe sound..


'' Ape bende buat banyak2 tu?? Membazir je!! ''

MEMBAZIR KAU KATE??????


Aku dah nak pecah kepalenye, dengan demamnye..duduk, buat jugak..

Yang kau sedap2 nak condemn aku buat ape?? Aku ade gune duit kau?? Takde kan??

One liner aku boleh bagi orang macam kau..

FUCK OFF!!

Kalau die sorang saje macam tue aku tak kesah, nie dah naik 2, 3 orang jugak...Perasaan nak sembelih diorang memang lah tinggi..Sabar qla..sabar...Aku dah pegang cutter kat tangan dah time tue..

Aku lately, memang pemalas nak contact orang..Kredit handphone pon takat sms..Line pon macam cipan..meh~

Baik aku tidur sebelum aku menambah dose malam2 bute..

Esok presentation, tawakkal banyak2....Fuuhhhh...15% carry marks...Chaiyo qla ^-^~

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Tidur Tepi Parit

Dah 5 hari aku tak dapat tidur secare betul..I dont mind though..Aku baru habis the so-called 'honeymoon'..sumpah imbar (pinjam ayat sang jejake..kalau salah spell..maaf)..

Pastu, as the result, hamek kau!!! Isnin=HARI TIDUR SEDUNIA!!!

Aku settle makan ubat 'meth', aku tidur dari 1pm smpai 6.30pm..kalau bukan sebab mase tue petir, sumpah aku tanak bangon..

Fyi..aku takut kilat..sebab aku ade sejarah kene panah petir..dan ye..aku masih hidop..

Mungkinkah aku ade 9 nyawe macam the so-called cat??? Naaaahhh >__<

Aku letih gile tahap dewa sampaikan aku rase pavement di tepi longkang sebelah fakulti sangat tempting..yeah I know it sounds..uhmm...like KEPALE HOTAK KO !! TEPI LONGKANG???? WHAT THE FCUK??!!!

Yeah..aku masih waras..*cough*waras lah sangat*cough*..tapi bile dah jadi situasi yang sangat sebegini..

Sumpah aku boleh buat the most outragous, idiotic, pathetic, bla..bla..bla...things..

Desperate measures kan? Lalalaala..

Ohh mate ku yang ngade2...sila lah tutop mate!!..Aku nak tidor..uuuuhh *sob*sob* T__T

Kurang rehat+Lapar+PMS=Cranky qla=Qla yang gila=Cepat snap

*Mari bernyanyi ramai2 lagu Dead and Gone* lalalala (ape releven disini?? Ntah..Suke aku lah >_<)

Out~

Friday, June 12, 2009

Patutkah Aku Rasa Sedih

Baru sampai JB semalam..Yang dasyat nye, dalam bas Plusliner tue, aku sorang je perempuan..

Chop..let me re-phrase that...

AKU SEORANG SAHAJA PENUMPANG!!!! DAN AKU PEREMPUAN!!!!!

I was freaking scared!!! Hello!!! Aku ade ilmu silat setinggi mane pon, kalau kene hentak dengan lelaki, aku tumbang jugak!!! T___T

Ohhh...Sebelom aku terlupe...

SILE JANGAN TENGOK BLOOD:THE LAST VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUMPAH SAMPAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was soo freaking pissed off with the movie sampaikan aku speechless bile cerite habis..Aku memang devoted fan of vampire flick..And aku memang anticipated cerita ini..Tapi..Ya Rabbi!!!!
Aku asyik menguap dalam wayang...Aku kecewe ok..

Rating???? o.5/5..Aku bagi pon sebab kesian kat Saya yang banyak lompat2 atas bumbung..

= Cliche!!! (Father got killed by the evil vilain-ness turns out to be the mother)
= Tak masuk akal T___T (Mere mortal kene bakar, campak dalam gaung, campak dalam air..tak mati2..jadah!!!)
= Macam budak2 (graphic scenes yang level kanak2...watsup Sony..*more like Tony*..takkan lahh darah memancut slow effects keluar mcm pebbles???? oohh..dont 4get my most favourite!!! Onigen punye "bearded blood'')

Back to my story *terlajak jauh bercerite*

Aku dapat panggilan dari member clan, mase dalam bas..Alhamdulillah, dapat jugak die habiskan diploma dia...

Im really happy for her..Tapi kenape tetibe aku rase bitter semacam eh?? Kenape aku rase macamtu? Rase macam nak menangis..Aku tak tipu..tapi tahan aje..

'' Takpe qla, bangon pelan2 ye..mase kau akan sampai jugak...repair dulu kepak kau yang tengah koyak..mcamane nak terbang kalau kepak tak stabil?'' my inner-self berkate....

'' Ya Allah...bertimpe betul dugaan kau bagi dekat aku..tabahkanlah aku ''

Abang Jai (the Plusliner driver guy) was a Johori-ian..Mule2 aku cuak jugak nak borak2 dengan die..Tapi die memang baik..nasihat aku macam2..aku lege jumpe orang baik in this infested evil world...

Semalam, aku mengambil keputusan untuk disable-kan masa silam aku untuk aku pergi jauh...Abg Jai kate aku bukan jenis mengalah..tapi strings from the past selalu hold me back..ikat aku untok tak pergi jauh..buatkan aku selalu terpandang belakang untuk ingat semule kenangan2 yang pahit...buat aku rase guilty..dan rase tak confident..betol kate die..

*fyi* Abg Jai is somewhat can read people's characterization whis was all true..

Aku mampu pergi jauh..aku tahu..feeling envy of other's success is a positive thing..
I have more in life to offer..

Maybe masenye dah tiba untuk aku crumble downkan my so-called- mask and loosen up a bit...
Lying to everyone..and most of all..
Lying to myself..

Proof to others Qla, that you are one of those rare gems that takes a long time to be polished, but turns to be the most shiniest of all~ =)

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Drama Melayu Tidak Berkesudahan

Aku baru sahaje balik dari makan burger telur di tepi longkang FLS (Faculty of Language Studies)..ye!!! di tepi longkang FLS..so?????

Hahahaha..aku tengah kusut kepale jugak sebab masalah yang agak rumit dan aku tak tahu macamne nak selesaikan..Nasib aku baik terjumpe satu listener yang hanye diam dan tidak judge aku..Thanx...I need that..Aku terasa sedikit happy ^-^ makan burger telur di tepi longkang sambil bercerita kekusutan yang membuatkan aku rasa nak meletup...

Assignment writing aku dah settlekan, draft sahaje lah..esok aku kene pastikan semua siap bertulis sebelum di hantar Khamis minggu ini...

Hidup aku sekarang bahagie betul...kawan2 yang seronok dan menggembirekan, keadaan sekeliling yang agak menenangkan walaopon jaoh dari penempatan *cough*panas nak mati*cough*..hahahaha =)

Ohh..ohh...aku kene gosok baju, esok kelas 8.30 pagi..malas nak kelam kabot...mungkin lepas ini, aku akan tulis 2, 3 kali seminggu..alah..hari2 tulis bosan kot..lagipon tak seronok hari2 korang nak hadap laptop/tablet pc/desktop/handphone canggih manggih korang kan..

=_____= meh, macam lah aku tak macamtu..hahahaha..

Selamat semua!!!! >__<

Monday, June 1, 2009

Bila Kenangan Itu Datang

Semalam, time aku duduk2 dekat balkoni rumah hostel aku, kenangan2 lame datang semule.. Kire macam flashback lah jugak...

Kenapa aku tetibe jadi sentimental? Time tuh tengah hujan gerimis, jadi menggedik teringat lah sekejap =)

Bila aku kenangkan balik, macam2 perkare aku belajar dalam hidup aku 4 tahun lately nih..
And aku bersyukur sebab perkara2 yang nampak buruk itu berlaku kat aku..

On how my life jadi kelam kabut sebab kelalaian aku sendiri..
On how aku musnahkann harapan aku sendiri sebab ikutkan perasaan..
On how aku hampir hilang segala2nya sebab aku terlalu pentingkan orang lain sebelum diri sendiri..

Aku bersyukur sebab along the way, aku tersedar dari khyalan aku sendiri dengan bantuan keluarga, kawan2 rapat dan conscious aku sendiri..

Walaupun tersedar dari khayalan sangat memeritkan, sekurang2nya, aku tak terlalu terlambat walaupon ade yang mengatekan dah terlambat..

Dan aku sangat2 bersyukur kat Allah sebab bagi aku peluang kedua untuk betulkan kesalahan hidup aku, sebab nyaris2 matikan aku kat atas katil operation, sebab bagi aku kekuatan untuk bangun dan terus kejar ape yang aku mahukan, sebab bagi aku akal dan fikiran yang boleh berfikiran jauh..

Aku sangat bersyukur...

Pade aku, janji boleh dibuat bergunung2, tapi nak menepati tue adelah perkare yang amat sukar, jadi aku berjanji pade Allah, pada keluarga, pada kawan2 rapat yang aku akan push myself to the limits...Aku akan kejar semula zaman kegemilangan aku yang aku campak ke tepi kerane kejahilan aku pade mase dulu..

Aku takkan menyesal dengan ape yang berlaku, aku takkan meratap kesedihan yang dah lepas..
Pada aku, aku bersyukur perkare2 yang tak mampu orang lain lalui aku dapat alami..

It was bloody horrible
It was pretty bad

It was devastating

It nearly break me into half all together

But hey, I made it out alive!!!! ^-^

Sekarang aku dah dapat ape aku nak buat, jadi aku akan push my boundaries sampai aku dah worn-out..

Its the only way aku boleh repay back to all the people I owe as a thank you note..

Ape yang aku boleh katekan, Its true ape orang2 cakap dalam buku, kat
aku...

'' The only one that could kill you with either words or actions is yourself, not others..Its not how many times you fall, Its the the strength and determination you take to rise up and fly again is what that matters ''

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Rindu Aku Tidak???

Hai semua!!!

Yah..yah..Aku dha lame tak update...Atas sebab2 yang memang tak dapat dielakkan..Chewaah =)

1. Aku sebok dengan kemas rumah sewe lame kat Penang..bapak penat =___=

2. Menyiapkan manuskrip2 translating yang tak berkesudahan

3. Kemas barang nak masuk kampus balik (pendek betul cuti kali ini)

4. Orientasi baru habes Khamis lepas >__< size="3">So, sorry lah ye..nyahahaha..aku dah start pergi training ice-hockey..
Kelakar betol sebab semue budak2 kecik.. Aku buat muke sardin aje..Kate nak belajar kan!!! Kimin (kawan adik aku, Pqa kat Mmu) kate, kene skate dulu baru boleh main..hahaha
Walaopon banyak kali aku jatoh macam nangke busok, tapi memang enjoy sangat =)
Bak kate orang ' SAKIT YANG MEMANG BEST!!!'


'' Baju basah sebab asyik buat adengan Patrick Star dalam ice rink..hahaha ''


Next week confirm turon lagi..trainer aku pon bagos..
Tak silap name die Kim, best player dalam tournament...woaahhh..untong dapat cikgu hebat =)

Banyak bende nak cerite tapi until next time ye..Aku dah lambat nak gerak balik kampus..

Mati!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


P/S - Isnin, aku mula mengait kelapa sawit sambil membaca Literature dan English Poetry..hahahahaha

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Happy 21st Birthday Qla~

First of all..aku nak cakap thanx to all yang wish my birthday..Its a nice thing..Aku bukan kesah sangat pon hadiah..pade aku, ingatan yang penting..sayang korang >_
Second, aku nak clarify things..Aku ade dengar berite x sedap dari clan2 aku kat Shah Alam dan Penang..Sebab aku dah 21, adult la katekan, jadi aku nak habaq sikit..
So, aku nak bagi sepatah due kate yang takk berape sikit la kan...

1. Aku depressed tak bermaksud aku putus cinte..
= I mean, come on la guys..Aku x se-pathetic itu ok..yeah, maybe aku overly express myself, tapi takde la nak nanges golek2, kelar tgn, terjon jambatan ke...aku tao saket lahh...Aku tules post2 tu sebab aku mmg not good expressing myself and yeah, aku ske literature..so? hey, admit la..the crap was gud kan? kan? kan? hahaha..angkat bakol sndiiri di situ...so, Im ok laahhh..and thanx for the concern..enjoy it =) Aouq, aku bukan seperti itu ok...Nia, im not easily broken apart because of love..Im better than that..cut the rumours..

2. Aku cepat depress kalao hujan+gelap+sejuk=qla yang depressive
= Yah..yah...Topek kate 'qla, nape nak salahkan hujan pulak?'..baheklahhh..tapi itu mmg aku..aku cepat depress bile hujan dan sejuk dan gelap dan yah..on my birthday alone..get it? aku ter'emo' di situ..hahaha terlebih skit ko..bile hujan berhenti, aku dah ok...I simply ADORE rain+coldness+dark.. tapi bile bende2 terlebih dosage, aku leh jadi lemas sorang2..yes, Im a complicated being..I love myself..bweek =p

3. Tolong lah berhenti tabur fitnah, tak penat ke?
= Ooohh..ni part paling bes..aku mmg dh simpan..20 taon kot..so, im letting it all out...Aku tao korang byk sangat pahale...kalao ye pon..relax ah nak bg aku byk2..penat la nak pikol byk2..hahaha..aku gelak kat rumah bile dengar some of them..kadang2 x masok akal pon ade...nak tao ape? meh aku listkan A FEW..

# Qla tu dah x virgin sbb bkawan x snonoh=Hoi manusie..ko tue baek sgt ke? ko tao ke aku ni virgin ke x? Sedap je kau mengate ye..mcm ko pnah tngok je..isk2..aku tao nak jage diri..dah lah kau baik dengan aku..manusie hipokrit..talam due muke..kueh talam tu lagi sedap..at least leh mkn..ceh..malas nak layan..not worth my time manusie begini..sumpit kau boleh?..

# QLa jual sushi atas badan=Sumpah aku tergelak mcm org gile bile dngar ni..hahaha...msti org yg ckp ni tak pnah masok Sushi King..ok..aku kerje kat situ, tapi...ade alat yang dipanggil CONVEYER BELT yang memusingkan sushi ke pelanggan ok..BUKAN ATAS BADAN..wth...hahaha

#Qla kaki bodek=Ha? aku? bodek orang? ok2..aku bukak kamus dewan td and carik jugak..adekah bodek=peramah? ape ko gile ke? serious haywire lah kalao begitu..the problem is, the guy/girl study kat campus..i mean, come on la...at least, pndai la nak bezekan, ko berakal dan intelek kooot..aku ni jenis macam tu ke? hadooiii..

Banyaki lagi..aku malas nak elaborate..kesimpulannye, boleh tulis buku lah...THE MELANCHOLY OF QLA..hahaha.

4. Tak bermaksod duduk serumah semua perlu diceritekan
= Aku tak faham lah..kenape ye..persepsi org..bile duduk serumah..semue luar dalam org tu kite kene tahu..perlu ke? tak perlu kan? Jadi, berhenti tanye kawan2 serumah aku untok korek my dirty lil secret..kan senang tanye aku teros..aku makan nasik same mcm org lain...next...

5. Jangan jadi MELAYU SANGAT boleh tak?!
= Aku bangge jadi anak Melayu..walaopon aku kacukan..ade darah cine..tapi aku ade darah Melayu..Melayu jugak kan? Aku plg x leh blah kalao org kite bersikap Melayu habes..allergic la weh..x phm maksod aku?

= ''Ye la..aku bodoh..ko pandai..lain lah''ataopon mungkin 'Aku tak cantik/hensem mcm ko''...WTF laaaa..please la guys..boleh tak jangan jadi naif tahap dewe!!!...Sumpah laa..kalao korg jumpe aku, ckp mcmtu dekat aku..mmg aku akn direct sumpit ko dengan kate2 pedas..nak try? cube lah....pastu kalau nangis jangan salahkan aku ok..aku bukan la kate aku ni bagos sgt..tapi tolong lahh...kalau dah tahu kelemahan diri, perbaiki laah..jangan asik geti nak merungut je..kecantikan tu..bukan nye leh bawak mati pon..aku tak kate la kne hodoh tapi berpade laaa..kalau muke je cantik hati busok mcm longkang pon x gune kan? kan?..neexxttt...

6. Aku memang pelik..so?
= Aku memang manusie pelik..Itu kenyataan yang memang semue org cakap..termasok parents aku..and Im happy about it..at least Im a lil bit different kan? Unique..Sape yang dah rapat dengan aku maybe tahu perangai aku..bagi yang tak tahu..meh aku list perkare baik dan buruk aku..tape, xyah nak segan2..

Perkare buruk
# Aku suke diam bile marah=Ko cakap la pape dgn aku, aku akan ignore..tengok pon dengan pandangan tembus je..
# Aku akan tunjuk kalau aku tak ske=Mama selalu bising sbb aku x geti 'belakon'..malas nak jadi hipokrit..kalao aku dah x ske org tu(bersebab ok)..aku mmg susah nak baik semule...senyum pon dh mcm kambing..senyum satu garis =___=
# Aku suke pantai..as in bercinte dengan pantai=Aku ade sedikit fetish dengan pantai..aku boleh duduk berejam2 dari pagi sampai malam kat pantai..semue keje tak jln..bahaye kalao buat rumah kat situ..mau x kuar rumah aku..
# Aku penyimpan rahsia org= Buruk sebab? The tendency for me to explode dan jadi the lil miss devil sgt tinggi..tapi I dunno wth diorg ni percaye btol kat aku..x takot bocor ke? Dah la basically 80% of the secrets are by my so-called-'enemies'..Ishh...x phm aku...and the secrets are classified as HIGLY FLAMMABLE (as in kalao bocor mmg rosakla name)...isk2..gile kentang..

Perkare baik
# Aku susah nak cakap NO kat org= Ko swoh la aku buat ape, aku mmg buat..bunuh diri doesnt count okeh..hahaha..cube tanye Teha ke, Nadt ke...seryes aku mmg cepat kene buli bile part ni..
# Aku sanggop mati sbb org kesayangan=Yep..mmg gile..kawan2 baik aku kate aku sewel..tapi itu lah aku..kalao ko bahagie..aku bahagie..qla..ko mmg tak betol
# Aku pendengar hebat=Well, aku rase mcmtu la..aku boleh dengar berejam2 dan comfort org..tapi aku x mampu buat untuk diri sendiri..cacat nye..hahaha..
# Aku pemberi nasihat yang baik= Setakat ni, aku tade lah suroh org bunuh diri sbb putos cinte..belom lagi..g la semayang...ingat tuhan..lagi elok la weh..putos cinte? cube lagi..

7. Ape aku suke buat? Hah??
=Aku bukan Justin Timberland ke Chris Cokelat yang femes tu..nape nak tao ape aku suke buat..pelik je..nak tao ke? selalu org tnye..smpai aku nak rakam pastu tekan PLAY je..ape yang menarik pon?
haiiih...well, aku suke makan, tido, bace buku, golek2 dengan Suden, gosip2, dengar lagu, buat website, pegi pantai, makan eskim, maen hujan, racing dengan Savvy aku, lepak dgn kengkawan dan mestilah belajar..hohoho...same je mcm org laen kan..ooohhh..dan aku suke duduk dalam gelap..sangat menenangkan..

Aku rase, buat mase ni, tu je lah kot..Jadi, berhentilah buat assumption kat aku ye..Aku x selembik itu..
Aku takkan cepat mengalah..

Sebab aku adelah qla..dan qla akan mampu berdiri selepas jatuh... >_

Friday, February 20, 2009

Saya Pulang~

Wahhhhh!!!!

Dah lamenye aku tak membuat post..sebulan lebih rasenye..dalam sebulan sejak kebelakangan..banyak sangat bende berlaku..

MEMANG BANYAK OK ^____^

1. Aku mule bekerje dekat Sushi King
2. Aku jatoh sakit (nanti aku cerite mase post seterusnye)
3. Aku masok hospital (yehh, ini pon berkaitan dengan nombor 2)
4. Aku bertukar sebanyak 2 hospital dalam mase 10 hari (sangatlah sakit jiwe -___-)
5. Aku di beritahu menghidapi penyakit yang sudah di tahap kronik (aku nak mati dengar ini)
6. Aku menjalani pembedahan
7. Aku kene dudok hospital 10 hari (lame gile weeeh...boleh repot)
8. Aku tak dapat keluar rumah (nanti luke berdarah..maka, aku terputos hubungan dengan dunie luar)

Ok,itu lah sebabnye aku tidak membuat sebarang post..

Doakan aku sembuh cepat ok..aku dah naik reput kat dalam rumah!!!!!!!!!!

^______________^

Out~

 
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