Qla.The.Emotional.Writer

Away On Hiatus

2010-05-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

Whoaaaa...

It's been a while since I posted up something..

Had a wonderful time these past 3 weeks..

With all the Literature Play going on, road trips and so on..

Sadly to say, I would be on hiatus for a while..

Want to focus more on my finals..

Wish me well, and have a good day ahead of you =D

P/S - Happy Labour Day to all the workaholic workers..*although, I'm a day late* =D

I Bought The Tickets!!!!

2010-04-11T09:01:00.001+08:00

Hoyeaaahhhh =D

Finally bought the tickets at the pre-sale at Time Square yesterday =)

'' I'm all smiling ear to ear with the redemption card =D ''

What did I bought?

I bought U-Kiss tickets!!!!

Although it costs a fortune, it's somewhat a treat for my birthday and all the hard work of studying =D

*claps claps*

I couldn't attend VGL this weekend, as I have to cram my studies for the incoming tests..

'' Seeing the boys LIVE in action =D ''

Never mind, at least I have a replacement concert now =D

P/S - My first EVER concert in my 22 years of living..feeling all psyched up and excited all ready..I don't give a hoot if you think they are lame..they're STILL effing rich..Are you??..Bwwweekkk =D

I Am Partially Healthy

2010-04-09T08:06:00.000+08:00

Yeahhhhh...alhamdulillah...

I am partially healthy again =D

Partially?!?!?

Well, good news is, my tonsils are not swelling anymore..

Which is a good thing..

Only the phlegm remains..

I'm gonna go buy U-Kiss tickets tomorrow!!!

As a late birthday treat for myself =D

Going to start working on my Reader Response assignment today..

Hopefully would be finishing it up by tomorrow..

P/S - Suddenly realized that I have approximately A MONTH before finals =D

Going For Re-Checkup

2010-04-06T07:46:00.000+08:00

Throat is still throbbing..

Going for re-checkup again today after supplies of antibiotics had been cut out..

Ohh..the agony...

Am taking the MC for the day...

Ohhh well =)

Until then..

Throat PMS-ing

2010-04-05T07:39:00.000+08:00

This is by far, the worst ever sore throat in my life history..

It's effing itchy..

It makes me want to scratch my throat out...

It 'emits' gooey greenish phlegm whenever it likes..

My antibiotics supply is running low..

And it's still not getting any better..

Conclusion????

I'm super screwed T^T

Still Recovering

2010-04-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

With all the sickness floating around..

I still can manage..

Currently staying alone in the hostel..

Doesn't irk me anyways..

Used to it...

Humm..wonder what I'll be having today for lunch..

Guess it would be porridge again..

Haven't eaten anything solid for the past 4 days...

Can feel the body getting lighter =D

P/S - My tonsils are getting bigger T^T

Dying

2010-04-01T10:51:00.001+08:00

I am officially down!!!

My tonsil is killing me..

It made me down with high fever..

I HAD to skip the second class of ESL which came after Literature class this morning..

It was TOO MUCH for me to bear..

I was wearing thick sweaters, but still, I felt cold on the insides, and SUPER HOT on the outside =(

It was a relief that the report on Pengajian Malaysia had been handed in earlier this morning..

I had to literally drag my way back to the hostel as I didn't drive to the faculty..

Brought some sufficient amount off Fried Mee Hoon to last through the night..

Felt like going to the clinic but was TOO sick to drive..

I can't even see properly as my eyes were hot and watery..

Some food, Panadol and Rhino Cooling Water should be sufficient for now..

Until then, I'm off tto la-la land..

P/S - Can't even finish my usual portion of breakfast..Ate only a quarter of it..Wow..my fever is REALLY bad =(..Wondering how many days it would take to recover..

Tonsils

2010-03-31T08:14:00.000+08:00

I am having tonsil!!!!!

Well, just ONE tonsil...

But still, the agony is like having 3, or 4 T^T

I can't swallow properly, to even drink plain water can be such a pain in the arse..

I get irritated more faster *ya laaahh, I ate more less than I usually do*

Am having so many pending assignments to be done..

Slowly..slowly, Im crawling to settle them all one by one..

With the upcoming play in 2 weeks time, this month is going to be one heck of a ride..

Whining would NOT be tolerated =D

Got to start typing away my report on the Historical Places review..

P/S - Dear tonsil, please go away, I need my power boost of concentration..You can come back visit me after that ok =D

Sigh?

2010-03-28T07:47:00.000+08:00

Is going to meet up the folks at Concorde Shah Alam for some family issues..

Too tired to drive..

Am having a sore throat..

Saw some few new bruises on the legs and body...

Makes me think I lack sufficient nutrients in my body =D

Pffftt...

Right~ =D

'' I need an umbrella just in case the weather gets out of hand ''

Excessive Bakso Is Hazardous

2010-03-27T10:39:00.000+08:00

I'm down with a sore throat..

Why?

Last night, I had Bakso for dinner accompanied with Lime Juice..

'' Bakso @ Meatball Vermicilli Soup ''

Because it was raining heavily, I wanted something hot and spicy..

Due to my excessive, too excessive kamikaze brain, I poured in THREE..

YES!!!! THREE!!! of the SPICY SAUCE into my Bakso..

How did my Bakso looked like in the end??

I swear I couldn't see the very bottom of it..

Hahahahaha..

The food was surely damn HOT and SPICY I tell you =)

I was sweating like heck when its still rains outside..hahahaha

And now, Im down with a sore throat..

Me, and my genius antics...

Pfftt =D

So, much for being 22 =D

Im Older And Wiser Babeh

2010-03-26T08:09:00.000+08:00

Heyya..heyya...

Phewww...It's the day after the big day already =D

I had the most memorable birthday ever of my life..

On that day alone, me and Mr Rascal went out for some food hunting all around KL..

We ate a LOT..well, it's me all the time anyways =D

I ate...*drumrolls drr drr drr*..

1. Taco's + Nachos
2. Chicken Vermicelli Soup Noodle (Mi Sup Ayam)
3. Char Kuey Teow
4. Hainan Chicken Rice
5. Cendol
6. Egg Rojak

Yes.. I ate all of them ALL OF THEM =D

Ehehehehehehe..I have a bottomless tummy..

Mr Rascal was sweet enough to drive me practically everywhere.. =D *happy happy*

Went to our usual hanging out spot, Ikano+Ikea+e@Curve+Curve...

Hanged out at the pet shop in Ikano for ages..

Ogling at the cute cats and dogs..

'' I want a dog!!!! Can???? The Doberman Pinscher looks cute =D '' I said to Mr Rascal

'' Sure..sure..I'll get you one *pats my head* '' he replied

Thank you for sticking up with my childish behavior =D

I had many beautiful beatiful wishes from my friends, colleagues and facebook friends..

Thanks guys, I really appreciate it..

P/S - I have a presentation today..Hope It'll run smoothly =D..Mr Rascal bought me a book called Fish..I love it..Thank you =D

My tummy is getting sick from all the food I ate last night..bwahahahahaha

Its Nearing The Big Day

2010-03-24T08:39:00.000+08:00

A lot had happened lately..

Such drama..

I tend to ignore it anyways..as always..

Ain't worth my time..

I learned a lot from my previous experiences..

I tend to be nice once in a while *well, most of the time actually =D*, but I COULD also give cold shoulders sometimes too =)

Tomorrow's the big day..It doesn't bother me that much tho..

I mean, birthdays are just birthdays..

They come and go every year..

Maybe it's a bit sad as the number keeps increasing, but heck, it's just numbers..duhhh...

It doesn't really matter if I am celebrating it or not..

Usually, when the so called special day arrives, my tummy would churn like heck, and I feel like vomiting T^T

Why? Im clueless a well here..

Nervousness? Eeeecckkk..why would I??

Guess I need some time to let myself loose..

Been tired lately..

Imagine if I hadn't taken all the supplements and vitmains...

I'll practically fall dead asleep on the floor from exhaustion before past noon!!!

Life's been one roller coaster ride..

No surprise tho, its my final semester, and chunks of works keep piling, and deadlines around the corner to meet..

My poor poor Lappy-chan *my lappy as you can guess* nearly DIED..NEARLY!!!

Im glad you din't die on me baby, or I'll drop dead on the spot!!!

All the assignments and notes in there =D

My birthday wish this year is for everyone to stop giving me major headaches for me to decide their goddamn lives..*me, giving advice is fine with me..me, deciding what to do so on and so forth for YOUR LIFE is a BIG NO NO*

Tired la weyhhh...

Sounds selfish??

I well DESERVE to be selfish don't you think???

P/S - I love myself and I miss my girls..Oiii Teha, Nadt, Jess, Yaya when are we gonna catch some girly moments together????..enuff said =D

Im Beat

2010-03-22T07:21:00.000+08:00

Heyya!!!

Just came back from Kuantan..

Vacation!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha..kidding, it was for my research paper...well, still, could be considered as a vacation..

Would be updating more often after this..

Been abandoning my poor dusty blog for a while now..

What to do..I've been busy =D

Later y'all =)

VGL tickets Are Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-12T07:52:00.000+08:00

I want those effing tickets!!!

Sob..sob..

Well, it doesn't cost THAT much as I was expecting..

The cheapest seats would be RM83, while the uber ones costs RM283...

Could someone donate the tickets for me?

I'd be happy =D

Would be smashing my piggy bank soon.. =)

Tickets just went on sale today...Nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Yeah, Im here, Im Here

2010-03-10T07:56:00.000+08:00

Its been a while since I post up anything on this dusty page..

*cough*cough*

I've been very very very busy..

Had been juggling with personal problems, study time, and massive loads of assignments, presentations and tests..

It's all in a life of a student =)

Checked my calender and..damn..

My birthday is just around the corner..

Made me realized..that I forgot my own birthday T^T..

Lame =___='' *sob*sob*

Birthday's are just birthday's..no difference to me..

It would fall on Thursday, so I'm guessing, I'll be stuck in class and swimming my way through the piles of assignments..

Oh, some even had asked me what I wanted for birthday..*if it wasn't for you guys, I'd totally forgotten my birthday was around the corner*

Well, I WANT.................................

Uhhhh..

I don't know!!!! T^T

I don't really want anything...

I have needs, but when it comes to wants, I'm a totally utterly a dimwit...

I may ramble I want a PSP, or I want a new laptop, but I don't need those stuff I guess..

I can manage to use whatever I've got..

Call me plain if you want me too..

But I just don't care..

I ain't going to nag if I don't have a fancy handbag..

I ain't going to whine, if I don't dine in famous restaurants..

I ain't going to get mad if I don't receive super expensive presents for my birthday..

Simply said, give me something I CAN USE =D

Easy right =)

Well, it's my off-day today, no class and all...

Later, am going to bazaar with my housemates =)

P/S - Will try to update more =D

On Hiatus Again

2010-02-28T10:43:00.000+08:00

Would be on hiatus for a while..

Sorry guys, I have too many things on my plate right now...

That would spill any moment soon..

Damn, coping is seriously HARD work.. T^T

All the drama is gonna make my head split...

Registration course on the line...
Certain people giving me fucked up time..ignore!!! =D
Assignments piling up..

FELT LIKE STABBING SOMEONE IN THE GUT WITH A KNIFE

Give me some space would you????

I can't hardly breath..

Its bad enough my boat isn't 'stable' enough =__=''

Stop, for once, stop leaning on me for 5 minutes!!!

Just 5 goddamn minutes..sob..sob..

FCUK!!!!!

Success Generate RM100 Just By Log In FB

2010-02-13T09:47:00.000+08:00

I just generated RM100 by just updating my Facebook status..

Neat huh!!!

My small step towards financial freedom =)

Alhamdulillah, my efforts had paid off =D

Anyone interested?

Im finding enthusiastic people to pass down my knowledge

I'll be glad to guide you..

If I can do it, so can you!!!

P/S - Anyone interested? Msg me through my FB or email =) I'll try to entertain your curiousity A.S.A.P

Out~

Shining In Style Y'all

2010-02-12T14:12:00.002+08:00

I have an interesting uber cool website I've found on the net recently...

It's a JEWELLARY ONLINE STORE!!!

WAIT!!!! Hear me out..

It's NO ORDINARY shop I tell you..

I was skeptical of the site itself at first, but when I saw the WHOLE range of jewellary, be it customed or from the range itself..I personally FELL in LOVE with each and everyone of them..

The shop specializes in cultured freshwater and saltwater pearls, precious and semi-precious gemstones, and precious metals..

They have a WIDE range of RINGS, PENDANTS, and EARRINGS..yeayy..

Just look at some of my personal favourites =D

Black + White Enamel Eternity Band

Amethyst Wonder Pendant

Jet Black Enamel Breeze Ring

Pearl Drop Earrings

What I love about this store is they are shopper friendly..In what way???

Well, for starters, they educate buyers on the Jewellary Basics..

Then, they also expose buyers on the History of Jewellary, Gemstones Guide, Metals Guide, How to store Jewellary, How to clean Jewellary and the MOST IMPORTANT of all, the Jewellary Buying Guides..

Neat right? I personally think you don't have to be a buyer yourself to then know these kind of things..

It's no harm checking out this uber cool website right..

And the price is AFFORDABLE too..They even SLASHED OUT PRICES for buyers to own their favourite piece =)

Here's the link for the shop CLICK ME =D..

You could do me a BIG favour by signing up the competition =)
Do tell me your favourites after visiting the site ok..

P/S - A hanky panky easy way out site that offers jewellary for those special moments!!! *pssst, especially Valentine's around the corner*

Out~

Hiatus

2010-02-06T14:13:00.001+08:00

I would be on hiatus until the mid of February due to some business I have to attend to =D

Until then =)

Take care

Out~

Tribute To The Late Sultan Johor

2010-01-23T17:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, while I was eating my sweet corn stick in front of the Tube, watching Fullmetal Alchemist, the announcement bar that was scrolling below caught my immediate attention..

Yes, it was confirmed, that current Sultan (ruler) Johor had passed away..

And following later on that night, news about him was the main highlights for each station..

Heard from rumours that the late Sultan was sick..but didn't know it was fatal..

But he lived a good life of 77 years..nearly 3 decades of ruling the Johor state..

Its a rich and fulfilling life if you ask me..

So, the whole day today, me and the whole lot sat down, and watch the burial ceremony that was telecasted live on National TiVo..

Not trying to be rude or sarcastic here, it's not everyday a royal blood passes away..

This is the only chance where we, normal citizens have the oppurtunity to learn their lifestyle..aside from their luxurious marriage that is..*and also have a sneak peek into that gigantic castle of theirs*

The ceromony was surely a long one..and rich with cultural ethics..

It started at 11am and ended around 4pm..

All people from walks of lime came by to the castle to pay their last respect to the late Sultan..

Even the King Mizan and the Queen came by to pay their last respect to the late Sultan's family..

It was heart warming to see King Mizan (who just underwent a knee surgery in Germany and STILL recovering) in crutches smiling away and paid condolence to the late Sultan's family..

I could see it hurts as he was seen a few times on TiVo shifting his weight on his left leg *the right one was injured*..and to top it off, he DID NOT even SIT for even a moment..applause to you monsieur..

Learned a lot today from the ceremony, could see even royal bloods grief in sorrow for the passing of their own kind..

All would be better..Insyaallah..

Farewell my dear Ruler, may you rest in peace eternally there..Amin =)

Out~

Home Sweet Home

2010-01-20T22:12:00.001+08:00

Yeah!!!!!

Im home again..

Its been a while since I post up anything..

Came back JB on last Saturday..

The flight was delayed yet again..

Was expected to board the plane at 9.15pm..

And yet, I boarded half an hour late..

The irony was, we were expected to land at 10.45pm..

But somehow, the pilot 'managed' to fly the bird and landed at JB around 10.15pm..

I tell you, the pilot must have speed like heck and crossed the speed limit..*what do you expect, Im in the last flight, the pilot must have been sleepy+tired already..poor thing*

Lucky they're aren't any 'flying cops' up there..=D

Yeessshhh..

Had done nothing much recently except washed my dirty clothes I brought back, tidied the house a bit, and went back to Granny's house..

I even hadn't brought back even a single book *beaming with pride for no reason =D*

Am waiting for my sister, Pqa to finish up her finals tomorrow and come back home..

P/S - Heard my results would be out next week..Ohhh...whatever...Im too in the mood of relaxing to care frantically *yawn*..

Out~

My Car Got Pawned

2010-01-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

Hello again earthlings =D

Am currently loafing, lazing around MMU Cyberjaya, in my sister's room..

Packed up my stuff..

Would depart to the airport at 6pm..

Flight would be at 9pm..

Im too lazy to go earlier than 6pm..

As I have to wait there, alone, and bored out of my mind.. =D

Have I told you that my car, Savvy-chan got pawned recently??

Meaning, 'he' was hit by some dumb driver who took off..

It happened just 2 days ago, when I was taking the third paper, LSS..

Me and my housemate, Yaya was heading out for dinner that night, when one of my college mate pointed out to me the 'scratch' on my car...

I was effing surprised by the so-called scratch that wasn't even there that same noon I returned from lunch after my paper..T^T

'' Ohh my poor baby T^T ''

I really don't understand how the fella literally COULD NOT SEE my car!!!!

I mean, its GREEN for crying out loud!!!!!

I totally would understand if its dark in colour, but it's EFFING GREEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some people really drive with their knees stuck in between their legs...aihhhh...

To make things simple, I already sent the car to the workshop recommended by a trusted friend =D

I'll be picking the car up in 2 weeks time..

Until then..

Out~

P/S - Could smell the breeze of hometown =D

Banzai!!!!!

2010-01-15T17:30:00.000+08:00

Horayyyyy!!!!

Exams are finally over...

Woot..this calls for a celebration =D
Couldn't update the day before as my Mozilla PMS-ed AGAIN on me..

I do not know what's wrong with it T_T

I'll try patching it up when I get back home..

Am currently now in MMU Cyberjaya, hanging out with my sister, Pqa, for the night..

Gotta catch a plane to JB tomorrow night which is why I am making 'home' in MMU =D

Ohhh..as for the finals, alhamdulillah, things went out smoothly..

Hopefully, I'll be scoring 4 A's this semester..Amin =D

After the last paper, Phonology, we had our last task together, which was a karaoke session with Mr K (our adorable Listening+Speaking Skills lecturer)..

The task was simple..

Sing a song, be it a grouping karaoke session, or individual, you get 10% extra marks for the coursework

Tempting right!!!! =D

We all did it anyways..after the whole class sang, Mr K sang Man Bai's 'Kau Ilhamku', which was a beautiful ballad..ohh..and accompanied by his handsomely-sexy white Fender..Rawwwrrrr =D

Some of us shed tears when we sang the song, as it reminds us of the bittersweet life we endured this semester..

We parted ways after the karaoke session..and off to respective hometown destinations..

Will be eagerly wating you all in 2 weeks time!!!!
Have a fun and safe holidays =D

P/S - Sent my car to the workshop already =D..Is trying to view the partial eclipse but its too cloudy..too bad =__=''

Out~

2 Touchdowns, 2 More To Go

2010-01-12T15:43:00.003+08:00

Zzzzzzzz...

Just woke up from the so-called nap of 10 minutes..

That got lengthy *cough*cough* to a well....ummmm nearly 2 hours 'nap'..

Ahaaaaa..not my fault =D

I didn't get any proper rest these couple of days...

I kept waking up in the middle of the night...must be the adrenaline rush kicking in due to the exams T__T

Ok, back to the finals...

So today's paper was Intermediate Grammar...

It was pretty easy, but utterly confusing..Yes!!!

That's a problem I might say..

You see, when things go down too easy, every possible answer in the booklet seems to be the perfect answers...

Which is NOT GOOD!!!! @__@

Well, did my best tho..

So let us hope for the best..

Tomorrow's paper could be safely described as 'a breeze' *no..no..not trying to be arrogant here*...

If you could only see the notes for the paper tomorrow..

Ohh..it's the Listening and Speaking Skills paper by the way..

I only have literally 3 piece of paper...YES!!!

ONLY 3 PIECE to be read =D

With the killer paper Phonology on que the next two days, I have to slot my time like crazy for tonight..

I guess I'll get my peace when the Phonology paper is over =)

P/S -Freedom is on the way =)...Stand still qla!!!! Hoyeaaaaahhhh =D

Out~

Phewwwww, One Down

2010-01-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

Wooootttt!!!!

One paper down, three more to go =D

Overall, the paper was do-able =)

A few bumps here and there, but I could still manage them..

Today's paper was purely theoretical..

The Academic Reading Skills paper..

Among one of the most dreaded paper of all 4 papers..

I have 2 dreaded papers on my list..

One of them is today's paper..

And the next is Phonology..

That would be commencing on Thursday, 140110..

Yes, it IS the last paper..*sigh*

Hopefully, everything would go out as planned..

P/S - Tomorrow would be Intermediate Grammar....Better start swallowing the dictionary for powerful vocabs =)

Out~

I Am Ofiicially Brain-Fried

2010-01-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

We meet again..

I literally do not have anything to post up..

Cause apparently, my brain is fried, pruned, busted..call it whatever you want..

It is soo bad, that I can't even remeber the day today, or what date it is..

Lucky I still remember my name..

Ehh, do I now?? =D

I feel like vomitting everything I ate for the past 24 hours..

Am beginning to have multiple shots of headaches...

Must be the constant pressure of memorizing I did for 4 hours straight this morning..

So, to avoid excessive damage to my poor brain, I am taking a break and loosening up..

Yeah, by blabbing here..and scribbling lil angel wings on my past year papers..Lame!!!!

So, yeah, tomorrow's paper is purely theoritical, which is why I am cramming my head off T^T

At 9am..morning..got to wake up early tomorrow, stuff few buns down my throat *I am bad at eating breakfast..tend to eat breakfast+lunch=blunch together..save maaa!!!!*, and off I go to the 'war zone'..

Roaaaarrrrr =D

Hopefully, everything would go on smoothly, I'll keep updating the whole week *If I could* in order to keep my sanity in check =D

Nyaaaa...pray for my success =D

P/S - Renewed my road tax!!! Savvy-chan is 'officially' halal on the roads again!!!..Me, happy =D

Out~

Scared Shitless

2010-01-07T09:53:00.000+08:00

I have 3 tests today!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Homaigod!!!!

Im freaking nervous T^T

I got a Speaking Presentation on marriage this 10.30am..on POLYGAMY..O__________o *Im not even married*

A backup test *cause the whole class screwed on the last test * on Reading Skills T^T

And last but not least, Intermediate Grammar on 8pm consisting of 60 questions *Its a shame the lecturer didn't decide to give 100 of those ''sarcastic''*

Gotta run~

Later =)

Out~

Does Time Really Heals The Pain?

2010-01-06T09:43:00.000+08:00

After a few days of intensive training, finally, the play was staged yesterday!!!

Beauty & The Beast =)

It was the best moment ever..

After the play, I was overwhelmed by relief..

I should right?

We started practicing for the final act from 2.30pm till 7pm NON-STOP!!

Talk about craziness for perfection =)

Naaaaahhh...we just wanted it to go out smoothly as we want to =)

But in truth, when the curtain rises, everything went haywire..hahaha..

Forgetting lines..

Too much pauses..

And inaudible speech towards the audience (yes, they were audiences)..

But hey, flaws are intentional..we a re just a bunch of amateurs trying to perform.. =)

The lecturer was proud of our efforts and commented on us..

But sadly, the downfall was (well, rather for me of course) I had a 'slight misunderstanding' with someone in particular..

It was soo bad that 'that person' didn't even want to look at my face..

It's alright, I forgive you..

I never blamed anyone for it..except myself..

I'll try to work it out soon..

Honestly, it's the worst feeling ever..

But, in the end, I had to continuously smile and just don't make others feel sorry or guilty towards me..

It's alright guys..I understand the situation..

I really don't know what to do..I have literally no one to talk to..

I kept everything to myself..And just smile..

Hoping the pain would subside..Hoping..

Hope..

A funny word..

I wonder how much times I've hoped before..

How many times I've hoped and repeatedly been let down..

Im tired...

I'll just wait here in this spot..and not move..

I'll walk again when I feel ready..

That day would come..

I hope..

Out~

Looooooooong Week Ahead

2010-01-04T08:35:00.000+08:00

Woke up super duper early today..

6 am!!!! =D

And it was super freaking cold....Brrrrrrr *imagine Coca Cola shivering style =D*

It rained cats and dogs the previous night..

Studied for tomorrow's reading test after Subuh prayers..

I'll try to update more often..I'LL TRY..why??

Because I'll be having a very very loooooooooooooong week this week..

NO...NO..

I'm NOT exaggerating y'all =D

Ok, let me share my list to do things for this week shall we =)

TUESDAY 050110

Test 2 (Academic Reading Skills)
Presentation-Musical Play (Phonology)

WEDNESDAY 060110

Test 2 (Phonology)
Test 1+ Test 2 + Article Review (Intermediate English Grammar)

THURSDAY 070110

Test 2 (Listening+Speaking Skills)
Presentation (Listening+Speaking Skills)

Yeahh..I know T^T

It would be one hell of a week..

And to top things off, my finals would begin on the 110110..

I'm scared okey....VERY VERY SCARED =D

Can't afford to screw this semester's finals..

Chaiyo..chaiyo..

P/S - New year resolution 2010 shall be postponed to after the finals..hehehe =D

Out~

Ungrateful Bastards

2010-01-03T23:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, in life, things aren't that smooth sailing as you want them to be..

Well, mine too..

I've trained myself not to be TOO dependent on others..

Either physically, and especially mentally..

Let's face it..

Only our skin colour's the same, but not our hearts..

One might be pure white..while the other, black as coal..

But nobody can see each other's right???

Not trying to spread hatred or negative vibes to anyone..

But sometimes, being nice to people, is not worth it..

Well, Mom always tell me that we do good to others not for the sake of being repaid upon..

Because my siblings and I were brought up in that mentality, we seldom fight among us..

And I'm thankful for that upbringing..

Despite all the back-stabbing and hatred going on, especially in campus life, all around me, it taught me to be more calm and composed to handle sticky situations.. =D

And for that, I thank you Mom..

Back to my situation here, somehow, I don't know..

People always tend to take advantage of my so-called kindness..

I'm not saying I'm that good or angelic in manner..

But, can't you be at least grateful..

Look around you!!!

Don't simply find other people's mistakes...correct yourself first before you do others..

Sometimes, I wonder, maybe, my kindness and showing love to others, isn't welcomed from the beginning..

Mr Rascal always told me to take care of myself first before taking care of others..

But what happens know is, I ALWAYS..ALWAYS..place myself second before others..

Haiihhh...

Its a real pain in the arse when you have to adapt in situation like these..

Around ungrateful bastards...why I harshly named them bastards?

Because, people like these, tend to fake a smile in front of you, say sweet things at your face, and later, when you turn around for a slight moment, they either bad-mouth you, or stab you from behind...

Neat huh..so, to sum them up, they are better referred as BASTARDS =D

I don't need gifts or money to compensate what I did for you..

Just a mere honest smile, and a thank you is more than enough for me..

If you are what you claimed to be a GOOD FRIEND, do correct if I went astray..

I'm human too..I tend to make mistakes..Be cocky and arrogant once in awhile..

Advice me..I can take it..No worries..

But too bad, that is hardly to happen..

Safe to say...

'' We live in a world full of hypocrisy..May Allah protect me from the worst that could happen ''

P/S - Can't believe my 100th post would be this type of post..Full of emotions and angst *drama queen* =D..Congratulations on me 100th post!!! <3

Out~

New Year Resolution

2010-01-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

Ahaaaa...

Not yet accomlished =D

Sorry..been busy *puhihihi*

Out~

Brief Celebration

2010-01-01T11:34:00.008+08:00

Happy 2010 people!!!!

=D

I personally feel this 2010 would bring me 1001 great things to come..Amiin =)

Had the chance to see the spectacular view of fireworks..

Celebration!!! Celebration!!

The pyro effects were awesome..

Not yet scribbled down my new year resolution..aiihhhh..

Until then =D

Out~

Let's Reminisce 2009 Shall We?

2009-12-31T14:09:00.001+08:00

Yeah..I know..

It's new year's eve!!!

I remembered it was just like yesterday 2009 kicks in..

And here I am, ushering in 2010 in and passing 2009 by =D

Well, how's my 2009 you say???

For starters, to sum it all up..

I could say..NO..what I meant to say~

IT WAS ONE HELL OF A RIDE!!!!

Follow me for a brief glimpse of my 2009 if you love to stick around to know me better =)

FEBRUARY

= The most crucial time of my life..I was diagnosed with Acute Sinusitis@Rhinosinusitis..Was admitted into 2 different hospitals (Penang General Hospital = 4 days and Johor Specialist Hospital = 6 days ) and underwent an FESS surgery to remove the polyp that was literally stuck somewhere behind the base of my brain (sounds cool eyh?..NOT T^T..It hurts like hell people!!)

'' Lookie here!!! Me cool hand got stabbed..Want to be like me?? =D ''

MAY

= Start of a new life...Turning over a new leaf..call it whatever you want..Was accepted to do a one year foundation course into a varsity..Finally doing TESL..Something I've always wanted..Met new people..Had new housemates..Learned to be more accepting, more responsible, and learning step by step not to look back that frequent..For the first time, I slowed down in my life of rushness to get everything perfect, and try to enjoy life as it is, bit by bit..Accepting sincerely, people are not always perfect like we want them to be =D

'' My housemates + me on campus celebrating The Mooncake Festival ''

JUNE

= Met someone new..After 6 months being widowed..Hahaha..Describing him??? He loves to entertain me =D..Is that enough??..Love you bunches Mr Rascal..For this coming 2010, I wish you the best of luck in your studies, with paintball you adore soo much, and not forgetting your COD4 frenzy battles with fellow Freedom Fighter Force (FFF) <3

'' Me and Mr Rascal..May we reach our goals in life!! Amin =D ''

JULY

= I got a present from my cat, Suden!!!! No words could describe the 'special' moment that was given..See the picture yourself =D Nonetheless, I STILL LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE SUDEN<3

'' No biggie Mom!!! It's just a scratch =) ''

'' Or maybe not T^T..Ouchhhhhh...Got scarred for life..Ohh well =) ''

OCTOBER

= I obtained my first semester results and it was AMAZING!!! Alhamdulillah..CGPA 3.4..It's a good start..Proud of myself..See!!! I'm not stupid..I can excel if I want to =)..Gotta work extra hard for the next incoming finals which would start on 110110..Suddenly, the dream of studying abroad is beyond reach...Maintain..maintain.. =) I'm gonna do my family proud..NO MORE BLUNDERS!!!! Yeahhhh

'' Yeahhh!!! Kiss my flunks goodbye mister..I'm gonna soar the skies soon =D ''

NOVEMBER

= Went back to celebrate Raya Hajj with family..Its been a while since the whole lot gathered as one happy family =D..Although it was short, it was certainly memorable =) I love my family..Won't trade them for anything..pronto.. =D

'' Family is like watermelon...uhh..I think soo =D..Sweet and juicy and big..yummy *no idea what I'm blabbing about..maybe I'm just hungry*~ hahaha ''

DECEMBER

= Well, its a pretty hectic month for me I might say, brought back Savvy-chan to campus...Brought 'him' for a spin..Its good to drive 'him' back...Love you Savvy-chan <3 I promise to take care of you >3<..

Would be busy preparing for my finals that would start on 110110 until 140110..Wish the best of luck for me..I pray to Allah 2010 would bring prosperous to my whole family, loved ones, and friends...

Let us be more than what we are..Pushing boundaries shall we =)

Ohh...I have to work on my new year resolution soon...

I'll share once I've complete it..

Until then..

WELCOME 2010!!!

THANK YOU, AND GOODBYE 2009 FOR EVERYTHING =D

YOU SHALL BE DEARLY MISSED FOR YOU TAUGHT ME VALUEABLE LESSONS ON LIFE =)

Out~

Beauty Sleep

2009-12-30T11:27:00.004+08:00

Oh today..I have an exciting story to tell..

Well, sort of exciting to me =D

Hussshh..don't kill the mood =)

Yesterday, after procrastinating for months and months and months and..(yeah..we got you, move with it!!) of the-so-to-called-want-to-buy-a-new-pillow, I FINALLY FINALLY bought one!!!!

Horayyyy =D

Well, the truth is, I was a cheapo!! IM SORRY for being one =D

I literally used my allowance for the pillow on dining..hahahaha..typical me =D

That's why my body's getting sideways, not taller..aiiihhhh *truth hurts*

Oh..oh..the pillow I bought was on ~~half priced~~ 70% discount..

From RM80+-ish to only RM19+..See!!! Good bargain right??? *Qla!!! You're a cheapskate!!*

'' My pillow is somewhat that fluffy-white type *the lady there is just for illustration purpose and to hold up the pillow =D* ''

I even NAMED my new pillow *cause I wanted too..bweekk =p* to PuPu-chan!!!!

Don't ask me why I chose that name..I woke up this morning, and the name just popped out from my brain =D..

I even bought a BLACK FROGGY!!!!

I'll post about it on the next post =D

I am truly a girl with a super young heart =D

Ohh...for your information, the Black Froggy is my FIRST plushie toy I bought for this year!!!

Yes, 2009 is almost coming to an end, and here I am buying some plushie T^T

Due to the fact I have TOO MANY plushies at home, Mom forbids me to buy anymore plushies =D

Ohh..before you cut my allowance Dad!!!, I bought the Plushie at Daiso!!!

Meaning, it's just RM5!!!! And NO, I didn't burn a hole in my wallet =D

P/S - Can't wait to have another session of night sleeping wih PuPu-chan..Hurry up and go down quickly Mr Sun =D

Out~

I Can't Sleep Just Thinking Of You

2009-12-29T01:17:00.001+08:00

This fella is making me crazy..

I can't sleep of not think of him T^T

Out~

Lazy Bum Bum

2009-12-28T13:31:00.001+08:00

Just came back from the Bursary to pay up my semester fees..

RM2080..

Bloody expensive =___=''

I can literally bathe in french fries with that sum of money..*sigh*

Ohh well, it's for education right?

So, no harm done there *suddenly, I can hear mumbles by Dad on the importance of education and how hard it is to find money these days* *sighhhhh*

No worries Mummy and Daddy!!! This ol' chap right here is gonna score some worthy A's this semester..Insyaallah =) *British accent is used here =D*

Stopped by the library to return some books..And borrowed some more..

I can't resist the smell of books..Just itching to either borrow, or buy them..*it's ok not to read them tho =D*

Yesterday, I went to an Indian friend of mine's birthday party..well, it's not a Zouk kinda style party mind you..

Just a nice, small, traditional, birthday celebration...

Thanks Devinii for inviting!!! This post is dedicated for you =D

'' Me and womanly Dev in a Saree!!!! ''

The food was scrumptious!!!

There was Dhal, Nasi Briyani, Mutton, and the best of all, loads of POTATOES in the dishes =D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*Im a pig when it comes to potatoes =D..yeah..bite me for it*

It was my first time attending this kind of celebration..

According to one of Dev's cousins *didn't get his name..sorry*, the celebration was to commemorate the step to adulthood..They believed that 21 is the riping age of a girl to a woman..

It depends on the family too..some family still practices this tradition,as some don't..

It was really nice to see other cultures aside from Malay's =D

Refreshing =)

Sorry for the lack of updates lately as my Firefox went PMS on me *I had to configure and install the latest version for it to start working again*

P/S - I'm getting fatter and heavier...I need to exercise pronto..If only I had the will to do so..Everytime I want to jog, I'll end up jogging on the bed =D

Out~

Swoooosshhhh

2009-12-23T12:10:00.002+08:00

Yeah...

Im soo relieved...

The reading review had been submitted...

Im also done with the Christmas ~~crapping~~ carol-ling for Phonology class..

Still stuck with Intermediate Grammar presentatation this evening, and maybe rehersal for the play tonight..

If you're wondering how the carol-ling went..

Well, we had fun, certainly..

The class practically laughed due to..due to..

Aiihhh...no words could describe the horror...

Well, below's the link for the video..

I do not know whether you guys could acceess it or whatsover..

Cause I practically privated my profile on Facebook..

So, if you're eager to really really see the outstanding funny crappy of Christmas version ala Tesl, then do add me at Aqilah Norain..

Don't worry, I won't bite ~~hard~~ =D

Click Me For The Video

P/S - Is preparing for 2.30pm's Intermediate Grammar presentation...goosebumps+nervous..get a grip laaaa...as if it's the first presentation in your life =D *drama queen*

Out~

Im Soooooooooooo Relieved

2009-12-22T00:56:00.001+08:00

Wahhhh..Im soo relieved my novel review is done..

You have no idea how torturing it was to procrastinate the 8 pages of tedious summarizing of 99 chapters in a book..

Yes!!! 99 chapters into just 8 pages..

My brain is totally pruned from all the summarizing work =D

Review down...

Tomorrow afternoon, I'll be Christmas carol-ling...

For Phonology...

What??? You think for fun is it???

Marks for coursework la weii....

Yes, I'll be crapping the heck with my fellow friends in front of others to impress the lecturers..

Well, it ain't that bad...

For a fact, should be fun..

Loosen up a bit..Ceeeeehhhh..cehhhh...Lies!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S - My dad..yes my DAD..owns a bloody Facebook account..OMG!!!!!.. Freaking excited =D...Yeah..he added me looohh

Out~

Being Nice Sometimes Doesn't Pay Much

2009-12-21T17:01:00.001+08:00

Read the title?

Enough said..

Out~

Piles Of Work

2009-12-18T12:45:00.000+08:00

Fwahh..

I got a handful of jobs to do..

Come here mood!!!!! I need you!!!!

Got to start working on the piles of assignments before it crashes on me =D

Lemme see the list..

Humm...

Review writing..

Musical drama..

Tests..

And...scattering here and there to attend functions..

Ohh well, I guess that's just the life of me =D

Not going to trade for anything...hehe >_<

This post is LAME..sorry for wasting your time reading =)

Just felt like typing away..

Out~

Grieving

2009-12-15T13:21:00.002+08:00

I received the bad news yesterday..

I was too stunned to even move..

I thought Mama was merely joking..

Comforting myself, I brought myself to sleep..

Last night, I dreamt of 'him'..

'He' sat beside me..

Like always..

As I pat 'him' gently, caressing 'his' head lovingly..

I awoke this morning..feeling like it was real..

Had the urge to call Dad..just felt like it..

Asking how he's doing and everything..Mama just reached KLIA the same morning..

Dad told me about 'him'..

I desperately held back my tears the whole time..swallowing..practically swallowing deep breaths while talking to Dad..

I didn't want him to worry..

Dad tried to soothe me down..I know he meant well....

Try as I may, my tears kept streaming down while I was chatting with Dad..

I tried desperately to control my voice, so it won't hear that obvious I was crying..

It hurts..very badly..I won't try to deny that..

I walked to the very edge of the corridor, so my classmates won't notice I had been crying..

The whole time during class, I kept biting my lips, until it bleeds, to keep me from crying again..

I don't know why, the pain seeps deeply through me..

Like a part of me had just died..

I'd be praying for 'his' safety..

Until then, I would always love you..

Always..

P/S - Please give me some time to grive =___=

Out~

Happy Anniversary To Us

2009-12-13T09:56:00.000+08:00

Im heading to One Utama today to grab some stuff Ive been meaning to buy..

No..not buying clothes or shoes..

Im partially broke to shop leisurely =D

I wonder when I'll have the chance to wear those Gladiator Wedges (I swear I wasn't in the 'correct' state of mind when I bought these..even Mr Rascal was shocked..me?? buying shoes?? Pffftt) of mine..tee hee =D

Because I'll be driving, I'll just wear my Wedgie Sandals for today =)

Ohhh..by the way..

Happy anniversary Mr Rascal..

Ich Liebe Dich...Sarang Heyo..Love You

May our relationship blossoms for eternal..

P/S - Im praying I won't be THAT broke after coming back from One Utama..hehehehe =D

Out~

Blardy Bored

2009-12-12T09:17:00.001+08:00

I have a car..

Parked outside my apartment..

But Im ~~soo~~ TOO lazy to drive anywhere..

I'm seriously bored..

My brain is about to rot anytime soon (ok, that's a bit exaggerating..hahaha =D)

My mind is clot with workloads I should be worried about..

Aihhhh...

It's so freaking hot here..

I so want to roll on the toilet floor in times like these (but, it's unhygienic to do so lahhh)

Sat on the edges of my window in my room the other night..

I was SOOOOO tempted to jump down from the edge..

Why???

NO!!! I didn't fought with my partner..
NO!!! I'm not under stress or so whatever =D

Just the adrenaline rush kicking in..

It's been a while since I wall-climbed, or played hockey, or even ice skate..

The rush is accumulating thickly in my veins I guess (chewaaahh..lame excuse =p)

Aiiiyyyoooo...Im gonna die out of boredom la wehhhh T___T

Suddenly felt like having a round or two of paintball session..

Do people die from excessive adrenaline in their body, people??

Do they ??? =D

Just a thought..hehehe..

P/S - Yes, yes, I promise not to jump from the balcony or windows or see-saw myself with a knife to counter the boredom =D...

OmgWtfBbq!!!!!!

2009-12-09T09:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday's Phonology Stand-Up Comedy presentation was an utter disaster!!!!!!!!!

I feel like stabbing myself with a pocket knife there and then and pray for a truck to hit me next..

Im not trying to be dramatic or so..

Picture this..

Youre in front of a MASSIVE crowd consisting of approximately 60, 70, more or less pairs of eyes..

Ohh, and not forgetting another 3 set of eyes whose judging your every moves...

Yes, the lecturers!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to top it off, it was raining heavily, windy, and I was literally screaming my head off delivering the jokes..

It was freaking hard because it was done in the Rotunda (well, its a some sort of open space hall in the middle of the faculty..the heart of the building if you might say)

I was nervous as heck..

And I do not know if my pronunciation or annunciation was correct...

Well, its over by then, so, no use worrying about it eh =D

The lecturer was super pissed off at the class after the whole presentation was over..

We were practically 'deep-fried' by him..

Well, couldn't blame him..

Somehow, we sort of made him ashamed in front of the other lecturers..

The presentation was 'contaminated' by some dirty jokes by irresponsible people...

For god's sake!!!!!!!!!!!!! The guy reminded us NOT to NUMEROUS times!!!!

Which part of a dumb-ass are you????

Sheeessshhh..thanks to you, the next class thinks we are 'dirty' people..

And the lecturer would probably FAIL most of us in this task...

Bravo!!! Idiot..

Well, the next 2 weeks would be a roller coaster ride for us all..

In line, news-casting, singing, and musical drama..and that alone is for Phonology..

Not forgetting the tests, the up-coming public speaking, and etc..etc..

Gotta perform better for the rest!!!..

Chaiyo!!!!

P/S - I need to consume more junk-food to soothe the nervousness..The cow-poop odour and palm trees isn't working anymore =D

Out~

Go Away Misery

2009-12-05T08:42:00.072+08:00

Im getting dragged down every minute that went by..

Almost constantly hearing couples arguing here and there..

Its taking a toll on me..

I know its non of my business..

Roommates' fighting constantly with their partner..

And classmates' too..

I hate when people fight with each other..

Somehow, it radiates waves that are very negative all around them..

All those icky black hatred..

Somehow, I just wanted them to stop..

PLEASE!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!

Everytime I overheard their conversation, I feel light headed, nauseated and the feeling of puking is too high..

I'll be running out from either my classroom, or my own room to get some fresh air..

I myself, admits, of not having a somehow perfect relationship with my partner..

Telling myself not too depend too much on people..

Somehow, a mechanism of self defense for myself..call it selfish if you want to..I don't give a damn..

Maybe one would say, ''Hey, you learn by getting hurt''..

Well, that's all in the past, and its plain bullshit..

Maybe the PREVIOUS old me would be agreeing on the statement..but not the PRESENT me..

A long time ago, someone told me, that I won't be with anyone because I'm too independent..

Well, you're wrong, I am still standing strong after numerous downfalls because I am independent..I accept my failures and go on with my life..

Unlike you...you poor soul, whose still finding your purpose in life..

Unlike you..you poor soul, whose always constantly running away from reality in life..

Sometimes, when I saw my own reflection, I always ask what I wanted in my life..

Money?
Love?
Education?

Which?

Wants..Needs...

Completely 2 different things..

I know what I need..and I know my wants..

And right now, my list of wants is getting decreased..

I had to discard everything I DON'T NEED..

I had to..I don't want to.. But I had to..

I CAN'T afford another failure...NO MORE..

Maybe the so-called love can also wait..

Well, I can safely say that..

Love makes me tired..

TIRED...pronto..

I might become the on-call girlfriend..again..

Being 'summoned' only whenever needed..

Well, we'll just see what happens next..

I have too much things on my hands right now, assignments, tests, and managing the musical drama to even care about irrelevant things..

P/S - To my peeps, if you're unable to contact me, or I went missing all of a sudden, fret not, I just need some time to sort my works..I'd appreciate if you'd try to understand my decisions..Doesn't mean I am discarding you from my life, I just need some time..Thank you

Out~

My Raya Hajj

2009-12-04T07:50:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last posted up anything..

Happy belated Raya Hajj everybody =D..

Hope your celebration was as hectic and fun as mine..

My celebration was a pretty jam-packed one I might add..

My flight which was supposedly depart at 9.10pm was delayed almost an hour later due to the previous flight from Macau was delayed for God-knows-what reason T^T..

Luckily beforehand, me and my sis, ok..I lied there..Me myself stuffed my tummy with a good load of food..We hang out for a couple of hours at Oldtown White Coffee, eating almost EVERYTHING on the menu...which later cost me up to RM60 (crazy, us people =D)

I reached home basically at 2am..YES!!!! 2am!!! I was soo freaking tired, had a quick hot bath and slept like a log..

Awaken on the day itself by Ayah at 5.30am..

Which means, I only had roughly 3 hours of sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sleep deprived on Raya Haji itself..pity me...

Had to go to Nenek's house to help her with the food preparations..

So, at 6am, on a chilly morning, I was driving on the almost empty roads with my sister (whose half-asleep) beside me...

We made a pretty heap loads of food on that day...

Nasi Tomato
Mi Rebus
Soto
Laksa
and a bit of Rendang...

I was too tired and preoccupied on that day, I was practically in my PJ's the whole day and NOT in my baju kurung..hahaha...

All in all, the celebration was a blast, going back home once in a while is fun =D

Can't wait for the next visit back home..toodles..

Out~

JB!!!! Here I Come

2009-11-26T09:00:00.002+08:00

Woo Hoooo..

Just finished packing up my baggage..

Heading back to JB today with the last flight at 9pm..

Yeah..9pm =____=''

I 'accidentally' purchased the last flight...

Oh well,no biggie, stranded at the airport..with full of food lots.. =D

Yummie...Get the idea???

I'd be reaching airport approximately at 1.30pm...

So, I'd be literally camping there for around 7,8 hours...

Hopefully, it won't rain that much today..I hate travelling in rainy weathers...Makes me have a bad omen about it T^T...

Can't wait to meet my parents, grandma, and Suden =D

Hmmm...wondering what grandma's cooking for the Raya Haji tomorrow..

Soto?

Laksa?

Lodeh?

Or maybe everything???? =D

Gotta go..going to grab some breakfast before heading out with Nadia, my roommate..

My sister, Pqa, would be meeting me up around 4pm to catch the same flight..

Will update soon =D

P/S - Alhamdulillah, the Phonology Test was not that hard, next Tuesday, another test would commence =D

Headache

2009-11-22T09:38:00.000+08:00

Woke up early this morning to a wet morning..it rained yet again..

Had a slight headache as the night before, I forced myself to absorb more of the Phonology notes T^T

Couldn't get a proper rest, as a result, all these gilberish nightmares came pouring in..

Had a lot on my mind lately..

My close friends always say I tend to worry too much about things I shouldn't..

Scrolled down my playlist..''CLICK CLICK''

''Shattered by Backstreet Boys''

Huh??? My fingers just moved on its own..Owh well, its better then nothing..

My head is still spinning, sipped a gulp or two of water..

Suddenly, everything clicked in my mind..maybe Im feeling a bit lazy, ok, maybe extra sluggish and lazy because Im going back this weekend..

I miss Mama
I miss Ayah
I miss Ayep
I miss Nenek
and yeahhh..I miss Suden..

Sob..sob..

Would be heading to JB this Thursday..

Hopefully it wouldn't rain that much..

Its nice to have a break with families once in a while..

The last time I saw them was during Raya, which makes it 2, 3 months back I guess..

I often wonder how it felt for the students abroad to not being able to see their partners and families that much..

It must be hard on them at first, I guess, adapting to the situations makes them stronger..

What if I was in their shoes, would I able to not my family that much?

To not miss my partner that much?

Hmm, I wonder..

Ohhh...guess what???

I already know what to talk about for my Public Speaking tomorrow..yeayyy =D

Hopefully, everything would go out as planned...

My mind is too full, to think straight..

If a person asked me their opinion at times like these, I'd surelyy stared back dumbly at them..couldn't function that properly..yes, to that extent...=)

Well, gotta start scrambling for my IEG assignment..which is also DUE by tomorrow..

Everything's due tomorrow..T^T

Well, no point in complaining huh..might as well, shut the heck up and start moving my lazy bum =D

P/S - I can't wait to go back for Raya Haji..classes and notes and Phonology and Intermediate Grammar can wait!!!! Au Revoir =D

Out~

I Need A New Change Of Batteries Please

2009-11-21T14:49:00.002+08:00

Awoken to a rainy morning..yet again..

Pulling my body away from the fluffy warmness of my comforter..

A quiet Saturday morning I might add..

Felt I've forgotten some important things..

Oh...

This coming week would surely be a challenging one..

Piles of school works to be done..

And not forgetting, money constraints..

Aiiihhh...the agony..

Nevermind..I'd be home on Thursday..I'd make it somehow..

Budget-eating mode ON =D

At times like these, I'd remeber the good old days when I was still in Penang, where I was left only with RM10 in my wallet..to sustain a week's eating budget..

Sounds ok right? I don't think so..

The downfall was that the only RM10 was for my gas..for Savvy-chan...sigh..

So, for the whole week, I made fried rice for lunch..switching with home made sandwiches in between them which was quite economical I might add..

You see, the main thing I'm trying to point here is, you don't need a million buckaroos to live your daily life..

Its how you live well, and spend the money..that's the main thing..

Nowadays, us tend to think money is everything..Its really saddening to think its everything..

TRUE, money buys you fine food
TRUE, money buys you nice clothes
TRUE, money buys you all the luxurious you could think of

But somehow or rather..

Money CAN'T buy happiness
Money CAN'T buy friendship
Money CAN'T buy true love

Sometimes, I just couldn't understand (I don't know if Im the only one whose naive, or even slow here, correct me if Im wrong) why us people tend to freak out if lets say you are short of money..

Wake up!!! It's not the end of the world or anything..You'll practically live..

Its only the matter how you straighten and plan out your life..

An incident happened to me recently, right in front of my eyes, where, because of money, friendship ties were severed, and end up nastily..

And I was part of it sadly..I didn't know how to react, in the end, I just left it end in an ugly manner..I don't know if it was my fault to begin with, but I felt hurt by the thoughts of because of money, the beautiful friendship was never true to begin with..

To me, you could gain money wherever you go..

But a good education, a lasting relationship, and trust among peers, is earned for a lifetime..NOT bought by money..ask anyone, I bet they'll second my thoughts..I'm no goody-two shoes, but its how I view life..call it from experience if you might say so..

Tried to tell them though..I really did..Just because, I care and loved them..But all I got back was rude comments slapped right at my face...

Maybe to them, I was just a plain dumb, conservative person..too bad..they couldn't see things in my view..

So you see, what Im trying to say here..

Its NOT how much you have that's important, its how WELL you manage your spending to live your life..

Maybe what you have isn't as much as Bill Gates or Donald Trump..

Just be content with what you have..

Have the feeling of gratitude in you, and Im sure, you will see things differently..

Am NOT saying being poor is cool or anything..

Just be content, and grateful..that's all =D

Self indulgence is nice once a while, but too much of it, could spoil you silly, so be wise my friends =)

P/S - This is a good time to tone down all the fatties on my tummy..woo hooo =D

Out~

Postphoned

2009-11-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

Just got back from my faculty..

Found out the supposedly Phonolgy test that was supposed to commence at 10.30am was postphoned to Monday..

My God!!!

The agony I was in was unbearable..

Just imagine, studying like mad cows for 3 days straight, absorbing all the terms and transcriptions, and not forgetting the diagrams..then, in the end...CANCELLED T^T

Wow..what a day..

And on next Monday itself, I got a Public Speaking presentation for my LSS class and handing up my IEG Noun Clause assignment..

And to add up the misery..the Phonolgy test, before the Public Speaking presentation..

Nice combo man @__@

Looking at the bright side of it, I guess, I have extra time to study more..

Well, looking at my reflection at mirror just now, I noticed my eyes are beginning to resemble of somewhat of a panda =D

Essential resting and snoring is on the list for today's menu..

Books, can wait..hahahaha =D

Luckily, the sun is up and shining..for now, that is...

Nice weather to be all warm and lazy..

Can't wait to be back home next Thursday..

Miss everyone..especially Suden, my beloved cat..

Until then..

Out~

P/S - Get well soon Suden!!! Don't forget to eat your meds =D

Oh My God!!! We Are Flooding!!!!!

2009-11-18T14:45:00.000+08:00

Oh..oh..

Its raining yet again...

Morning, it would be all nice, hot and shining..

Afternoons till nightime would be a mix between either thunderstorms, blizzard or even winds..

Thank God, there aren't hail stones or tornados bashing the campus area =D

Usually the attire at night would be sweaters and track suit pants..

No more skimpy tops or shorts..hahaha =D

Everyone seems to be sluggish and soo lazy to attend noon classes that would be raining..

As Im posting this, its raining cats and dogs outside, with thunder and lightning (and yet, Im still in front of my lappy..aiiihh)

Phonology class that was postphone to 5pm seems soo farfetched to be attended..

Have to!!!!! Im not that good in Phonolgy..Cannot go lazy-lazy...

My eyes are getting heavier..ohh..the condition is so nice to sleep in..

Setting the time at 4pm, so I won't miss class...

Umbrella...check
Sweater...check
Non-slip slippers...check

Yesterday, my house was nearly flooded..the pipes were clogged, so it seems..

Retreating to bed now..until then =D

Out~

Vain Vain

2009-11-16T09:02:00.000+08:00

I was awoken rudely by th elightning outside my window..

Deshmit!! T^T

How I hate lightning..scared the living daylights out of me..

Tried to roll back and forth in my comforter to get some sleep..

Which failed miserably..again...

The past three days, Ive been hibernating, study, sleep, and continuation of hibernating..

NOT GOOD PEOPLE!!!! NOT GOOD!!!

Ehh, what's this?? Felt a lil heavier..

Aiyoooo!!! Im getting fat ah???? T^T

Got to pick up a new sport or something...sheeshh..

Its been raining constantly these past 3 days, which is good..considering the fact its quite humid here sometimes..

Class would commence at 10.30am, but Im still in my pyjamas, staring outside my windows..

The rain's still pouring in, and the weather made it look like it's just 7 past something in the morning..

I bet there'd be others that would go missing their classes with this type of weather =D

Mind me, Im just rambling my way through..

OH!! OH!!!

By the way, I FINALLY finished the blardy Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol book, which took me like a month and a half, nearly 2 months to finish it T^T *the longest reading done for a book*

The storyline???? Damn epic I tell you..

But for the weak hearted and impatient, get the heck away from this one..

It would make you want to throw it to the nearby walls..=D

Its practically a labyrinth, maze whatever you want to call..O___o

The reason for my late-finish???

I had to practically Wiki-ed or Google-d almost everything...

The facts I mean, in the books, are mind boggling..

When I finished the book, I slept for 4 HOURS!!!! To soothe my poor brain that was fried =D

Give it a go if you insist..you have been warned =)

P/S - Felt lame cause Mr Rascal finished it in a day T^T..sob..sob..

Out~

Aiyayayayai

2009-11-14T09:12:00.003+08:00

Its a wonderful cool Saturday morning..

Looks like its going to rain pretty soon..

Practically slept the whole day thru yesterday..its a norm when I overnight the day before..let's just say its a way to stabilize my sleeping time =D

In the last post, I mentioned about the problems I have to deal right?

Well, good news was, I mangaed to get thru the situation with some help..Can't say I can handle them all by myself..For that, I am grateful..

Im glad I was surrounded by great people..That cares for my welfare..Its nice to know that once in a while =D

Taken his advice to not make enemies..His words were..

''We are here to make friends..not enemies..Its ok to make more friends..but not enemies..k''

Somehow, when he said those words, I suddenly felt calmer, and I could rationalize my thinking..

Thank you dear..

And not forgetting my supportive housemates, who's been there when I was practically went berserk =3

I guess, all you need in the end was a bit of love and support in your system..

Ohh and as for the 'problems'??

I got the laugh last in the end..How I managed to do so?

Lets just say, a bit of silent treatment and lecturing did the job..

Untill then, got to finish reading The Lost Symbol for now..been ages to finish this good book..

Out~

Shit Happens

2009-11-06T07:34:00.000+08:00

So, here I am again..Posting up after abandoning my blog for quite some time..

Not that I don't have anything to write about..But I guess, I THINK I could handle all the measly stuff on my own..

Been a bit busy these couple of weeks..with reading materials, reviews and constant paper works..Not that Im complaining, cause I really wholeheartedly enjoyed doing them..

These couple of days, Ive been really irritated and annoyed at the same time with a couple of colleagues of mine..It starts as a small speck of problem, getting worse everyday unattended..

Frankly speaking, its taking a toll of me..

From downright everything..

Be it friendship, relationship and so on..

Yes, I am no GOD, I am no SAINT, and Im just human..

What irks me the most in my entire lifespan, is NOT the fact that I am plain dumb when it comes to shopping, or even NOT the fact that I am NOT that smart when it comes to figures...

NO...
Want to give it a guess??? Yes? No?

Well...Scroll on down then..

1. I LOATHE..yes..not HATE people..LOATHE..when people (am using general terms here, so, go figure) when you make all these lame excuses up to my face and thinking Im dumb..

HELLLLOOOOO!!!! Do I look like a blond bloke to you? Im sorry if you think I am...

Moving on..

2. I LOATHE...again, strong words....you think-youre-sooooo-good-of a-people makes empty promises and breaking them in the end...

Ohooo...Is that a fun thing to do I wonder..making promises here and there and thinking I won't remember each and single one of them..Ohhhh youre sooo dead wrong..

I dont mind..let me empasize that, I DON'T FUC**ING MIND if you can't do the things that you think could make me happy..Im contented with what I have...I really don't mind..and when I say I DON'T MIND, I REALLY DON'T!!!!...

Why laaaaaaaaaaaa...you have to make promises to me...

Its painful, everytime, you keep making promises and promises and promises...*sigh*..

Moving on again..

3. It ANNOYS the living daily lights of me when you screech, wail like a banshee and curse all the time!!!..
Deshmit!!! I'll get deaf before I'm 23...where's your fucking manners la????

Don't your parents educate you well enough????

I DON'T GIVE A HOOT, if you would think Im a skema or so on..

Go blab somewhere else..

Im NOT saying IM TOO GOOD myself..or TOO PERFECT on everything..I admit that..but I try HARD to improve everything everyday..call me a perfectionist if you want to..I don't give a damn..

I can say soo much but yet, I can't do a thing about it..

If I CAN sacrifice my time and everything to prioritize what's FAR important..why can't you???

Is it that so important to abandon your responsibilities??? Grow up..please!!!!

I think Ive said that much, its suffocating, am heading to MMU now...

Out~

Happy Raya Y'all

2009-09-19T16:18:00.001+08:00

Just recently came back from MMU Cyberjaya, after squatting there like a 'setinggan' for 6 days (had to wait for my sister to finish her lectures and bla..bla..before flying down to JB)..^-^

Overall, the 'homestay'@'hostel stay' was pretty awesome!!!

Played with fireworks with my MMU peeps in a park nearby and was nearly caught by cops

=> Duhh!! You CAN'T play FIREWORKS in the LOCAL PARK!!! For god's sake..of all the things in the world we played that there..hahaha..luckily we had our way..and sweet talk our way out..wooot

Ate sorts of food for break-fasting and bloat my way out
=> We ate buffet in Alamanda, Domino's pizza, stalls, bazaar food., junk food.I swear to god...Im getting fat by just staying there..these guys really know how to hunt good food..Honest!!

Learning 'the' IT @ Art talk

=> I must admit, I only thought that only Engineering guys, or TESL peeps had their 'it' language...Ohoo..I was soo wrong people..Staying there for almost a week made me realize that they too have 'the' language..Most of the time, when I tend to engage in a conversation with them..I always get laughed off..T__T..not my fault tho..different wavelength I might say..but they're very nice people..learned a thing or two tho =)

Engaging in wacky moments

=> Just imagine, we went to a bazaar in Bangi, to food hunt for our break-fasting..mission accomplished there..Then, decided to go to Dengkil to eat at the infamous Malee Restaurent (the food there is soo 'kick' man)..mission failed..full house..plus, it was Maghrib already (of course it must be full house by then..duhh)..Had to go back to Putrajaya..decided to eat at Mak Tam Restaurent..mission failed..also full house..by this time, we were all pissed off+hungry..Last resort, went back to MMU Cyberjaya, and ate at HB1..mission accomplished..hahahaha..see the long journey we had to endure..just to find a spot..sigh..but it was fun nevertheless..haha..

Making sweet memories

=> Due to Raya fever, the kids hung Raya lights outside their whostel windows to liften up the mood..some of them only could be back to their respective hometown a 2, 3 days before Raya due to hectoc schedule of lectures and loads of assignments..I really feel your pain guys..some of the unfortunate ones, could only be back a day before Raya (which would be today)..balme on sold out tickets, assignments not yet passed up and etc..

Setting up my blogshop

=> Beacuse I was so bored of my mind..I don't have anything better to do than checking my Facebook every 24-7..which spells L.A.M.E....I revamp my old forgotten blog to a blogshop..Within 2 days, the site was revamp and refurbished with a more friendly layout I might add..clean, and simple..I'd post up the link once my sight is up and running..which would hopefully be after Raya =)..Do wish me luck on this..I SOO want to clear out my closet..my mum's been nagging me not stop about all the nice clothes Im buying, but NOT wearing them..sigh..baaaaad habit T___T..

All in all, I'd like to take this oppurtunity to extend my Raya wishes..

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin

Be safe on the roads..

Take quickie breaks in between the travelling..

Have a cup of Nescafe or Milo or Horlicks, whatever to spiff you up.. ^O^

Fwaaahhhh

2009-09-18T00:24:00.003+08:00

Am currently setting up an online shop a.k.a blogshop to clear out my closet..

Mama's freaking out cause my wardrobe is JAM-PACKED with sweaters, not-worn tops and etc..etc..

She freaked out real BAD!!!

''Qla!!!! Don't you dare buy another piece of top unless you clear out your wardrobe!!! Ya hear me!!!''

Dang~

Im soo, toast T^T..

Yesh, I have the tendency or habit I might add, buying new, adorable, girlish clothes and NOT wear them..

Yet, I still wore the SAME old, BLACK top/shirt/whatever sweaters I could find..

Not my fault...They are just sooooooooooooo comfy to wear..

Aiihhh...I'll be damned..>_<

If Only You Knew, Would You Care

2009-09-05T20:25:00.005+08:00

Its been a while since I post up something here..
I was waaaayyy too busy with presentations, sleeping in between classes and struggling for multiple tests..
As finals is just 3 days around the corner, it didn't make things easier for me..

Just came back recently from JB due to a week of study week..
Yet, I came back to campus earlier..
Decided to have my last minute struggle in campus rather than at my own comfort of home..
*as if I'll be mugging my ass out in front of the ohhh-so-speedy internet connection lappy*

These past few days, had been one roller coaster emotional ride for me..Realizing things and accepting them without the heart to do so..The pain was very very intense..

It really felt like I was stabbed in the ___________<----- FILL IN THE BLANKS AS YOU WISH

Im tired of empty promises
Im tired of faking smiles
Im tired of adapting
Im tired of making people happy
Im tired of being unselfish
Im tired of giving people hopes
Im tired of being fake
Im tired of reaching out the unreachable
Im tired of being strong
Im tired of everyone
Im tired of myself

Some people tend to say Im just stressed out due to my finals..
Tell you what mister, AM NOT..

I tried to be selfish
I tried to learn to decline
I tried to reach out for help
I tried to be what people want me to be
I tried to give my best to everyone
I tried to love everyone I loathe
I tried to smile when tears threaten to fall
I tried to not burden others
I tried to make people smile
I tried to make people felt loved
I tried to love myself

I did..I really did..
As I sat on the grass, crying, reaching out for help..
Nobody saw me..
Not even a glance..
Nobody even heard my plead of helplessness..
I often wonder why..
Maybe, I was just a mere joke to everyone all this while..

Just a piece of pawn on their chess board..
Waiting to be disposed anytime they please..

Nursing my aching heart..
I could only comfort myself..
''Its ok my dear, the pain would go away''
''You are special, don't cry for them''
''You are not alone, you have yourself, you're never alone''

True, some tend to reach out to me..
But sadly, the moment I grab hold to them..
They disappeared..
Leaving me behind..
Holding on to empty promises the made and shattered dreams..

People might think I'm just full of crap..
An emotionally unstable girl..
I don't give a damn anymore..
You could say whatever you'd like..
As long it pleases you..
It's good enough for me..
Be my guest..
I'll just mind my own misery..

I'll hold on until I couldn't move on..
Until then, this is what I am..
A girl which hides behind the tears of a clown..

Idiotic Fckerama

2009-08-05T13:52:00.003+08:00

Yahhh..of all the days in the world..It had to rain today...No wonder it was damn effing hot last night..I literally have baggy eyes, black panda eyes..Even the pandas would recognize me as one of their own kind..Yahhh..that bad =____=

I slept in earlier than usual, had a midnight call, and when it ended, I was frantically trying to close my eyes shut...But it was pointless...

You see, I have this extraordinary, extremely high imagination..seeing so-called monsters from cupboards and even creeping under the desks..Yes, bad huh??

It all started when I kept on tossing and turning like mad on my 'fluffy' hostel bed..Grabbed my phone..

'' 3.30am ''

Tossed it away, shut my eyes...

Opened my eyes, grab the phone again..after thinking a couple of hours had passed

'' 3.45am ''

Damn lah....Only 15 minutes had passed????? O_______o

After trying, and trying, I fell asleep...Just because I saw the full moon which was red, and big, and round and yeahh...I scared the heck out of myself for no apparent reason..(hello, it was bloodshot red ok..really freaky)

And now, Im 5 minutes away from the-so called test..Im practically screwed..

Haven't read a single thing...Im just too effing lazy...Aiiiihhh..I'll be doomed if this continues..

Bla..Bla..Bla

2009-08-04T15:53:00.002+08:00

Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world, where they can be alone
Are you calling me? Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me? I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fucking depressed, I just can't seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump, but I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps, fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up, in order for me to pick the mic back up

I don't know how or why or when I ended up in this position I'm in
I'm starting to feel distant again, so I decided just to pick this pen
Up and try to make an attempt to vent but I just can't admit or come to grips
With the fact that I may be done with rap, I need a new outlet

And I know some shit so hard to swallow, but I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow, but I know one fact
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow, but you'd have to walk a thousand miles

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked, just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humour, everything's so tense and gloom, I
Almost feel like I got to check the temperature of the room just as soon as
I walk in, it's like all eyes on me, and so I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that, then it opens the door for conversation, like I want that

I'm not looking for extra attention, I just wanna be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room, maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need no fucking man servant, trying follow me around and wipe my ass
And laugh at every single joke I crack and half of 'em ain't even funny like "Hah!

You're so funny man you should be a comedian, God damn"
Unfortunately I am, I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down, listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't gotta trade our shoes, and you ain't gotta walk no thousand miles.

Nobody asked for life to deal us what these bullshit hands we're dealt
We gotta take these cards ourselves, and flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could of either just sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
Or take this situation in which I'm placed, and get up and get my own

I was never the type of kid to wait by the door and pack his bags
Or sat on the porch and hoped and pray for a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in, every single place, every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid, even if it meant acting stupid

I learned my lesson then, cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story, not just based on my description
Cause where you see it, from where you're sitting, it's probably a hundred and ten percent different
I guess we would have to walk a mile in each other's shoes at least
What size you wear? I wear tens, let's see if you could fit your feet...

In my shoes, just to see, what it's like to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's minds
Just to see what we'd find, look at shit through each other's eyes

Emotionally Tired

2009-08-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

Well, to make matters simple, lately, Im feeling emotionally tired..

Why?

Sometimes, when I sit back, and take deep breaths in between..something seems, feels...

MISSING...

You might start asking me all those W.H questions by the time Im done with this post..

But frankly speaking, I, myself, don't have the answers..

I have to admit, I have basically everything..as in, my basic needs are fulfilled, I have loyal buddies, a great family, and yeah, a lovable partner..

But somehow, amidst everything, I still feel..HOLLOW..

I wonder why...Hummm...

Im having fun with my life..
Im obviously happy..
My studies doing pretty fine...
Relationship is still stabil..

So why..I wonder why...

Sometimes, at one point of my life, I stopped searching..

Frankly speaking, getting beaten up physically by a bunch of crooks is waaay much better then searching for something that you won't even know its there by the time you reach the end of the tunnel..

Its tiring...But hey, who am I to complain..

Someone told me to stop thinking about other people's needs, and instead, learn to be selfish once in a while..

Me? Be selfish? Yeah...tried that a couple of times..And ended up hurting people I care..Way to go~

Better go grab a ''How To Be Selfish for Dummies'' in MPH or something..

As Im posting this up, am thinking of 'ponteng' a class..Don't feel like going..

Really...

So, I'll just ignore the class and sleep..Better of that way..

Well, good luck to me..

And to my girl, Nadt, be strong, shit happens in our lives..It ain't a pretty sight, but at least, its no fake..Live with it..And you'll be fine...

Until then, im proud of what I am, and I aint give a shit if people thinks low of me cause Im beautiful the way I am >_<

Someone's Dream Babe

2009-07-29T03:41:00.008+08:00

''Planet Eclipse Ego 8 Marker''

A dear person of mine, Mr A, whose become an ardent fan of paintball recently had been talking about this particular marker non-stop. So, out of curiosity, I kinda googled it, to see my new so-called 'enemy' who stole his attention >_<

And what did I find?? A total babe!! *ehh whose side am I supposed to be anyways* ^O^

With its sleek features and somewhat excellent specs, its not wonder he was thinking about it NON-STOP..Jealous wehh I tell you T___T..

Pinokio

''Pinokio Hopper Marker''

That's the name I would remember for the rest of the year *unless he got his hands on this babe earlier than expected*

The most important thing above all, to understand the language of paintball itself. You see, honestly, having tried this sport before once, I might say it gives one an adrenaline rush unlike any sports I've tried before. Its also a multi-tasking sport I might add. You have to think fast, move fast, try to not get shot, stay low as possible and literally cover your team mates as much as possible *not to mention carry the quite heavy marker along the way*..Long list huh???

Although it seemed quite tedious to play this cool sport, I find myself attracted to it..The feeling of satisfaction of playing the sport itself, not to mention the additional victory to top it of, one might say, it's a worthwhile sport. Although, it is somewhat costly, with approximately the minimum pay per game per person, depending on how many people are playing is RM70, nobody seemed to mind..>_<

*instead, got rip-off some more..still nobody minded though* >_<

Between you and me, I also intend to get one of them..But cannot laahh..My dad would kill me if he knew he's daughter is happily playing to 'kill' people. My mom won't mind though pretty much >_<

Currently, Im learning the art of communication *in paintball la of course* with him cause Im having a bit of a problem going there. Sometimes, along the conversation, it tend to be like a duck and hen talking to each other. I am trying yahhh...So don't bug me much about it T__T''

Haiiihh...nevertheless, it's really nice seeing Mr A being excited and jovial about it..at least he's into it..I won't mind though..Just go for it..and try not to get rip off that bad..haha..*if you could that is, which is impossible I guess, looking back at your wish list* ^O^

Ohh, and as for me, I would be freelance writing more on LAN games *you know, those COD, DOTA games..never heard of it?? O___o..aiyooohh what century are you living in???? GOogoogle lah then*, paintball *be it the latest hot topic of the scene, or just terminology and rules used int the sport*, and fashion *the most dreaded topic of all..had to bear with it T___T"*

Until then, cherrio people..have a blast in whatever you do *although you'll be ripped of in the end* hahaha..at least your having fun..no biggie =D

Stay Out Of My Fucking Life

2009-07-15T01:31:00.002+08:00

Yesh..Aku tau tajuk post aku pun dah kasar..Ape ke halnye???

Well, sejak aku masuk tempat baru nie, aku dah banyak belajar bersabar, sangat banyak banyak bersabar..Loosen up a bit, dan have fun with life..Ok, not entirely loosen up..I tend to worry about tedious thing, tapi that's just me I guess =)...

Sepatutnye, time macam nie, aku dah tidor, tapi sebab aku demam, dah 2 hari, mase tidur melimpah ruah, malam aku jadi burung hantu lah ape lagi...Padahal dah tidur dah tadi..Sebabjiran bangang kat atas rumah aku main lari2, aku dah terjage!! Desmit..Haiiihh..Sabar2 T___T..

Esok, aku presentation..Mengajar skills in writing pulak tue...memang terbaik!!..Dengan hidung aku macam empangan pecah..Idea nak bawak tuala good morning aku ke kelas esok, dan digalas di atas bahu nampak sangat tinggi..

Ahh..lenjan saje..Aku peduli ape orang nak cakap..Lalalala..

Time aku tengah2 sebok pecah kepale nak pikir ape bende nak buat untuk bahan mengajar aku, tetibe datang minah dari celah lubang mane, boleh selambe sound..

'' Ape bende buat banyak2 tu?? Membazir je!! ''

MEMBAZIR KAU KATE??????

Aku dah nak pecah kepalenye, dengan demamnye..duduk, buat jugak..

Yang kau sedap2 nak condemn aku buat ape?? Aku ade gune duit kau?? Takde kan??

One liner aku boleh bagi orang macam kau..

FUCK OFF!!

Kalau die sorang saje macam tue aku tak kesah, nie dah naik 2, 3 orang jugak...Perasaan nak sembelih diorang memang lah tinggi..Sabar qla..sabar...Aku dah pegang cutter kat tangan dah time tue..

Aku lately, memang pemalas nak contact orang..Kredit handphone pon takat sms..Line pon macam cipan..meh~

Baik aku tidur sebelum aku menambah dose malam2 bute..

Esok presentation, tawakkal banyak2....Fuuhhhh...15% carry marks...Chaiyo qla ^-^~

Tidur Tepi Parit

2009-06-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

Dah 5 hari aku tak dapat tidur secare betul..I dont mind though..Aku baru habis the so-called 'honeymoon'..sumpah imbar (pinjam ayat sang jejake..kalau salah spell..maaf)..

Pastu, as the result, hamek kau!!! Isnin=HARI TIDUR SEDUNIA!!!

Aku settle makan ubat 'meth', aku tidur dari 1pm smpai 6.30pm..kalau bukan sebab mase tue petir, sumpah aku tanak bangon..

Fyi..aku takut kilat..sebab aku ade sejarah kene panah petir..dan ye..aku masih hidop..

Mungkinkah aku ade 9 nyawe macam the so-called cat??? Naaaahhh >__<

Aku letih gile tahap dewa sampaikan aku rase pavement di tepi longkang sebelah fakulti sangat tempting..yeah I know it sounds..uhmm...like KEPALE HOTAK KO !! TEPI LONGKANG???? WHAT THE FCUK??!!!

Yeah..aku masih waras..*cough*waras lah sangat*cough*..tapi bile dah jadi situasi yang sangat sebegini..

Sumpah aku boleh buat the most outragous, idiotic, pathetic, bla..bla..bla...things..

Desperate measures kan? Lalalaala..

Ohh mate ku yang ngade2...sila lah tutop mate!!..Aku nak tidor..uuuuhh *sob*sob* T__T

Kurang rehat+Lapar+PMS=Cranky qla=Qla yang gila=Cepat snap

*Mari bernyanyi ramai2 lagu Dead and Gone* lalalala (ape releven disini?? Ntah..Suke aku lah >_<)

Out~

Patutkah Aku Rasa Sedih

2009-06-12T09:16:00.003+08:00

Baru sampai JB semalam..Yang dasyat nye, dalam bas Plusliner tue, aku sorang je perempuan..

Chop..let me re-phrase that...

AKU SEORANG SAHAJA PENUMPANG!!!! DAN AKU PEREMPUAN!!!!!

I was freaking scared!!! Hello!!! Aku ade ilmu silat setinggi mane pon, kalau kene hentak dengan lelaki, aku tumbang jugak!!! T___T

Ohhh...Sebelom aku terlupe...

SILE JANGAN TENGOK BLOOD:THE LAST VAMPIRE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUMPAH SAMPAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was soo freaking pissed off with the movie sampaikan aku speechless bile cerite habis..Aku memang devoted fan of vampire flick..And aku memang anticipated cerita ini..Tapi..Ya Rabbi!!!!
Aku asyik menguap dalam wayang...Aku kecewe ok..

Rating???? o.5/5..Aku bagi pon sebab kesian kat Saya yang banyak lompat2 atas bumbung..

= Cliche!!! (Father got killed by the evil vilain-ness turns out to be the mother)
= Tak masuk akal T___T (Mere mortal kene bakar, campak dalam gaung, campak dalam air..tak mati2..jadah!!!)
= Macam budak2 (graphic scenes yang level kanak2...watsup Sony..*more like Tony*..takkan lahh darah memancut slow effects keluar mcm pebbles???? oohh..dont 4get my most favourite!!! Onigen punye "bearded blood'')

Back to my story *terlajak jauh bercerite*

Aku dapat panggilan dari member clan, mase dalam bas..Alhamdulillah, dapat jugak die habiskan diploma dia...

Im really happy for her..Tapi kenape tetibe aku rase bitter semacam eh?? Kenape aku rase macamtu? Rase macam nak menangis..Aku tak tipu..tapi tahan aje..

'' Takpe qla, bangon pelan2 ye..mase kau akan sampai jugak...repair dulu kepak kau yang tengah koyak..mcamane nak terbang kalau kepak tak stabil?'' my inner-self berkate....

'' Ya Allah...bertimpe betul dugaan kau bagi dekat aku..tabahkanlah aku ''

Abang Jai (the Plusliner driver guy) was a Johori-ian..Mule2 aku cuak jugak nak borak2 dengan die..Tapi die memang baik..nasihat aku macam2..aku lege jumpe orang baik in this infested evil world...

Semalam, aku mengambil keputusan untuk disable-kan masa silam aku untuk aku pergi jauh...Abg Jai kate aku bukan jenis mengalah..tapi strings from the past selalu hold me back..ikat aku untok tak pergi jauh..buatkan aku selalu terpandang belakang untuk ingat semule kenangan2 yang pahit...buat aku rase guilty..dan rase tak confident..betol kate die..

*fyi* Abg Jai is somewhat can read people's characterization whis was all true..

Aku mampu pergi jauh..aku tahu..feeling envy of other's success is a positive thing..
I have more in life to offer..

Maybe masenye dah tiba untuk aku crumble downkan my so-called- mask and loosen up a bit...
Lying to everyone..and most of all..
Lying to myself..

Proof to others Qla, that you are one of those rare gems that takes a long time to be polished, but turns to be the most shiniest of all~ =)

Peraturan Sang Lelaki

2009-06-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

Hye people of earth!!!

Aku terjumpa this incredible funny comel post on one of my favorite blogs that Im following..

http://kandunganisihatiillmie.blogspot.com/

Tell me what you think..Aku rase ade betulnye jugak post ini..

NO OFFENCE LADIES!!!!

So, enjoy ok, and tell me what you think =)

The Man Rules

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down .Finally, the guys' side of the story. I(must admit, it's pretty good.)

We always hear“the rules" from the female side.

Now here are the rules from the male side.

These are our rules!

Please note.. these are all numbered "1 " ON PURPOSE!

1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done. Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..

1. Christopher Columbus did NOTneed directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A colour. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it willbe scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine ... Really

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as FOOTBALL or motor sports.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape.Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

P/S - Perut aku sakit sebab ketawa tergolek2 baca the so-called Men Rules..=)

Drama Melayu Tidak Berkesudahan

2009-06-02T22:26:00.004+08:00

Aku baru sahaje balik dari makan burger telur di tepi longkang FLS (Faculty of Language Studies)..ye!!! di tepi longkang FLS..so?????

Hahahaha..aku tengah kusut kepale jugak sebab masalah yang agak rumit dan aku tak tahu macamne nak selesaikan..Nasib aku baik terjumpe satu listener yang hanye diam dan tidak judge aku..Thanx...I need that..Aku terasa sedikit happy ^-^ makan burger telur di tepi longkang sambil bercerita kekusutan yang membuatkan aku rasa nak meletup...

Assignment writing aku dah settlekan, draft sahaje lah..esok aku kene pastikan semua siap bertulis sebelum di hantar Khamis minggu ini...

Hidup aku sekarang bahagie betul...kawan2 yang seronok dan menggembirekan, keadaan sekeliling yang agak menenangkan walaopon jaoh dari penempatan *cough*panas nak mati*cough*..hahahaha =)

Ohh..ohh...aku kene gosok baju, esok kelas 8.30 pagi..malas nak kelam kabot...mungkin lepas ini, aku akan tulis 2, 3 kali seminggu..alah..hari2 tulis bosan kot..lagipon tak seronok hari2 korang nak hadap laptop/tablet pc/desktop/handphone canggih manggih korang kan..

=_____= meh, macam lah aku tak macamtu..hahahaha..

Selamat semua!!!! >__<

Bila Kenangan Itu Datang

2009-06-01T15:47:00.004+08:00

Semalam, time aku duduk2 dekat balkoni rumah hostel aku, kenangan2 lame datang semule.. Kire macam flashback lah jugak...

Kenapa aku tetibe jadi sentimental? Time tuh tengah hujan gerimis, jadi menggedik teringat lah sekejap =)

Bila aku kenangkan balik, macam2 perkare aku belajar dalam hidup aku 4 tahun lately nih..
And aku bersyukur sebab perkara2 yang nampak buruk itu berlaku kat aku..

On how my life jadi kelam kabut sebab kelalaian aku sendiri..
On how aku musnahkann harapan aku sendiri sebab ikutkan perasaan..
On how aku hampir hilang segala2nya sebab aku terlalu pentingkan orang lain sebelum diri sendiri..

Aku bersyukur sebab along the way, aku tersedar dari khyalan aku sendiri dengan bantuan keluarga, kawan2 rapat dan conscious aku sendiri..

Walaupun tersedar dari khayalan sangat memeritkan, sekurang2nya, aku tak terlalu terlambat walaupon ade yang mengatekan dah terlambat..

Dan aku sangat2 bersyukur kat Allah sebab bagi aku peluang kedua untuk betulkan kesalahan hidup aku, sebab nyaris2 matikan aku kat atas katil operation, sebab bagi aku kekuatan untuk bangun dan terus kejar ape yang aku mahukan, sebab bagi aku akal dan fikiran yang boleh berfikiran jauh..

Aku sangat bersyukur...

Pade aku, janji boleh dibuat bergunung2, tapi nak menepati tue adelah perkare yang amat sukar, jadi aku berjanji pade Allah, pada keluarga, pada kawan2 rapat yang aku akan push myself to the limits...Aku akan kejar semula zaman kegemilangan aku yang aku campak ke tepi kerane kejahilan aku pade mase dulu..

Aku takkan menyesal dengan ape yang berlaku, aku takkan meratap kesedihan yang dah lepas..
Pada aku, aku bersyukur perkare2 yang tak mampu orang lain lalui aku dapat alami..

It was bloody horrible
It was pretty bad
It was devastating
It nearly break me into half all together

But hey, I made it out alive!!!! ^-^

Sekarang aku dah dapat ape aku nak buat, jadi aku akan push my boundaries sampai aku dah worn-out..

Its the only way aku boleh repay back to all the people I owe as a thank you note..

Ape yang aku boleh katekan, Its true ape orang2 cakap dalam buku, kat aku...

'' The only one that could kill you with either words or actions is yourself, not others..Its not how many times you fall, Its the the strength and determination you take to rise up and fly again is what that matters ''

Rindu Aku Tidak???

2009-05-31T09:09:00.003+08:00

Hai semua!!!

Yah..yah..Aku dha lame tak update...Atas sebab2 yang memang tak dapat dielakkan..Chewaah =)

1. Aku sebok dengan kemas rumah sewe lame kat Penang..bapak penat =___=

2. Menyiapkan manuskrip2 translating yang tak berkesudahan

3. Kemas barang nak masuk kampus balik (pendek betul cuti kali ini)

4. Orientasi baru habes Khamis lepas >__< size="3">So, sorry lah ye..nyahahaha..aku dah start pergi training ice-hockey..
Kelakar betol sebab semue budak2 kecik.. Aku buat muke sardin aje..Kate nak belajar kan!!! Kimin (kawan adik aku, Pqa kat Mmu) kate, kene skate dulu baru boleh main..hahaha
Walaopon banyak kali aku jatoh macam nangke busok, tapi memang enjoy sangat =)
Bak kate orang ' SAKIT YANG MEMANG BEST!!!'

'' Baju basah sebab asyik buat adengan Patrick Star dalam ice rink..hahaha ''

Next week confirm turon lagi..trainer aku pon bagos..Tak silap name die Kim, best player dalam tournament...woaahhh..untong dapat cikgu hebat =)

Banyak bende nak cerite tapi until next time ye..Aku dah lambat nak gerak balik kampus..

Mati!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P/S - Isnin, aku mula mengait kelapa sawit sambil membaca Literature dan English Poetry..hahahahaha

Aku Dan Tarian Sotong

2009-04-20T15:52:00.001+08:00

Hahaha..
Aku dah lame tak post..
Bile bace balik post2 lepas...
Aiseh...emo gaban aku neh...
Bak kate clan aku 'emo-dudok-tepi-dinding'..hahaha..

Dah2..
Aku dah nampak matehari..
Xyah ahh nak cengeng..
Macam hape aje..
Burok muke >__<...
Penat org bace blog aku yang gloomy dan amat amat depressing nihh..
Bweehh...

Mama kate..
Biar org buat kite, jgn buat org...
Btol kn?...
Ombak ramai2...
Weeee....weee~

Alah..nnti diorg dh penat..
Pandai lah diam...
Malas nak buat kedut otak aku je >__<..
Hehehehe..

Oh2...sekarang ni aku dh terer buat tarian jagung@tarian sotong..
Macam kewl je...
Nk tngok kene add aku kat facebook ahh...
Ape lagi...
Add la cepat2...
Camere-man..oopss...camere-girl yg btugas, '' Machi2 Teha'' tatao la dah uplod video blom...
Malash neh....
Cubet babat nak XD....
Penat aku bele ko..
Podacheet >___<

Oh2...aku x kemas barang nak courier lagi...
Aisemen!!!...
Leceh laaaa...
Malas nye *sambil golek2 sehingge terhantuk meje* T__T...
Esoklah buat... XD (setelah berape kali esok ntah)...

Rakan2!!!
Selamat membuat finals dengan maju jaye...
Mesie boleh..
Xkn korang x boleh...kan..kan..kan?..
Sehingge berjumpe lagi di rancangan...
Wonderpets..nyahahaha >__<~

Happy 21st Birthday Qla~

2009-03-26T04:23:00.002+08:00

First of all..aku nak cakap thanx to all yang wish my birthday..Its a nice thing..Aku bukan kesah sangat pon hadiah..pade aku, ingatan yang penting..sayang korang >_
Second, aku nak clarify things..Aku ade dengar berite x sedap dari clan2 aku kat Shah Alam dan Penang..Sebab aku dah 21, adult la katekan, jadi aku nak habaq sikit..
So, aku nak bagi sepatah due kate yang takk berape sikit la kan...

1. Aku depressed tak bermaksud aku putus cinte..
= I mean, come on la guys..Aku x se-pathetic itu ok..yeah, maybe aku overly express myself, tapi takde la nak nanges golek2, kelar tgn, terjon jambatan ke...aku tao saket lahh...Aku tules post2 tu sebab aku mmg not good expressing myself and yeah, aku ske literature..so? hey, admit la..the crap was gud kan? kan? kan? hahaha..angkat bakol sndiiri di situ...so, Im ok laahhh..and thanx for the concern..enjoy it =) Aouq, aku bukan seperti itu ok...Nia, im not easily broken apart because of love..Im better than that..cut the rumours..

2. Aku cepat depress kalao hujan+gelap+sejuk=qla yang depressive
= Yah..yah...Topek kate 'qla, nape nak salahkan hujan pulak?'..baheklahhh..tapi itu mmg aku..aku cepat depress bile hujan dan sejuk dan gelap dan yah..on my birthday alone..get it? aku ter'emo' di situ..hahaha terlebih skit ko..bile hujan berhenti, aku dah ok...I simply ADORE rain+coldness+dark.. tapi bile bende2 terlebih dosage, aku leh jadi lemas sorang2..yes, Im a complicated being..I love myself..bweek =p

3. Tolong lah berhenti tabur fitnah, tak penat ke?
= Ooohh..ni part paling bes..aku mmg dh simpan..20 taon kot..so, im letting it all out...Aku tao korang byk sangat pahale...kalao ye pon..relax ah nak bg aku byk2..penat la nak pikol byk2..hahaha..aku gelak kat rumah bile dengar some of them..kadang2 x masok akal pon ade...nak tao ape? meh aku listkan A FEW..

# Qla tu dah x virgin sbb bkawan x snonoh=Hoi manusie..ko tue baek sgt ke? ko tao ke aku ni virgin ke x? Sedap je kau mengate ye..mcm ko pnah tngok je..isk2..aku tao nak jage diri..dah lah kau baik dengan aku..manusie hipokrit..talam due muke..kueh talam tu lagi sedap..at least leh mkn..ceh..malas nak layan..not worth my time manusie begini..sumpit kau boleh?..

# QLa jual sushi atas badan=Sumpah aku tergelak mcm org gile bile dngar ni..hahaha...msti org yg ckp ni tak pnah masok Sushi King..ok..aku kerje kat situ, tapi...ade alat yang dipanggil CONVEYER BELT yang memusingkan sushi ke pelanggan ok..BUKAN ATAS BADAN..wth...hahaha

#Qla kaki bodek=Ha? aku? bodek orang? ok2..aku bukak kamus dewan td and carik jugak..adekah bodek=peramah? ape ko gile ke? serious haywire lah kalao begitu..the problem is, the guy/girl study kat campus..i mean, come on la...at least, pndai la nak bezekan, ko berakal dan intelek kooot..aku ni jenis macam tu ke? hadooiii..

Banyaki lagi..aku malas nak elaborate..kesimpulannye, boleh tulis buku lah...THE MELANCHOLY OF QLA..hahaha.

4. Tak bermaksod duduk serumah semua perlu diceritekan
= Aku tak faham lah..kenape ye..persepsi org..bile duduk serumah..semue luar dalam org tu kite kene tahu..perlu ke? tak perlu kan? Jadi, berhenti tanye kawan2 serumah aku untok korek my dirty lil secret..kan senang tanye aku teros..aku makan nasik same mcm org lain...next...

5. Jangan jadi MELAYU SANGAT boleh tak?!
= Aku bangge jadi anak Melayu..walaopon aku kacukan..ade darah cine..tapi aku ade darah Melayu..Melayu jugak kan? Aku plg x leh blah kalao org kite bersikap Melayu habes..allergic la weh..x phm maksod aku?

= ''Ye la..aku bodoh..ko pandai..lain lah''ataopon mungkin 'Aku tak cantik/hensem mcm ko''...WTF laaaa..please la guys..boleh tak jangan jadi naif tahap dewe!!!...Sumpah laa..kalao korg jumpe aku, ckp mcmtu dekat aku..mmg aku akn direct sumpit ko dengan kate2 pedas..nak try? cube lah....pastu kalau nangis jangan salahkan aku ok..aku bukan la kate aku ni bagos sgt..tapi tolong lahh...kalau dah tahu kelemahan diri, perbaiki laah..jangan asik geti nak merungut je..kecantikan tu..bukan nye leh bawak mati pon..aku tak kate la kne hodoh tapi berpade laaa..kalau muke je cantik hati busok mcm longkang pon x gune kan? kan?..neexxttt...

6. Aku memang pelik..so?
= Aku memang manusie pelik..Itu kenyataan yang memang semue org cakap..termasok parents aku..and Im happy about it..at least Im a lil bit different kan? Unique..Sape yang dah rapat dengan aku maybe tahu perangai aku..bagi yang tak tahu..meh aku list perkare baik dan buruk aku..tape, xyah nak segan2..

Perkare buruk
# Aku suke diam bile marah=Ko cakap la pape dgn aku, aku akan ignore..tengok pon dengan pandangan tembus je..
# Aku akan tunjuk kalau aku tak ske=Mama selalu bising sbb aku x geti 'belakon'..malas nak jadi hipokrit..kalao aku dah x ske org tu(bersebab ok)..aku mmg susah nak baik semule...senyum pon dh mcm kambing..senyum satu garis =___=
# Aku suke pantai..as in bercinte dengan pantai=Aku ade sedikit fetish dengan pantai..aku boleh duduk berejam2 dari pagi sampai malam kat pantai..semue keje tak jln..bahaye kalao buat rumah kat situ..mau x kuar rumah aku..
# Aku penyimpan rahsia org= Buruk sebab? The tendency for me to explode dan jadi the lil miss devil sgt tinggi..tapi I dunno wth diorg ni percaye btol kat aku..x takot bocor ke? Dah la basically 80% of the secrets are by my so-called-'enemies'..Ishh...x phm aku...and the secrets are classified as HIGLY FLAMMABLE (as in kalao bocor mmg rosakla name)...isk2..gile kentang..

Perkare baik
# Aku susah nak cakap NO kat org= Ko swoh la aku buat ape, aku mmg buat..bunuh diri doesnt count okeh..hahaha..cube tanye Teha ke, Nadt ke...seryes aku mmg cepat kene buli bile part ni..
# Aku sanggop mati sbb org kesayangan=Yep..mmg gile..kawan2 baik aku kate aku sewel..tapi itu lah aku..kalao ko bahagie..aku bahagie..qla..ko mmg tak betol
# Aku pendengar hebat=Well, aku rase mcmtu la..aku boleh dengar berejam2 dan comfort org..tapi aku x mampu buat untuk diri sendiri..cacat nye..hahaha..
# Aku pemberi nasihat yang baik= Setakat ni, aku tade lah suroh org bunuh diri sbb putos cinte..belom lagi..g la semayang...ingat tuhan..lagi elok la weh..putos cinte? cube lagi..

7. Ape aku suke buat? Hah??
=Aku bukan Justin Timberland ke Chris Cokelat yang femes tu..nape nak tao ape aku suke buat..pelik je..nak tao ke? selalu org tnye..smpai aku nak rakam pastu tekan PLAY je..ape yang menarik pon?
haiiih...well, aku suke makan, tido, bace buku, golek2 dengan Suden, gosip2, dengar lagu, buat website, pegi pantai, makan eskim, maen hujan, racing dengan Savvy aku, lepak dgn kengkawan dan mestilah belajar..hohoho...same je mcm org laen kan..ooohhh..dan aku suke duduk dalam gelap..sangat menenangkan..

Aku rase, buat mase ni, tu je lah kot..Jadi, berhentilah buat assumption kat aku ye..Aku x selembik itu..
Aku takkan cepat mengalah..

Sebab aku adelah qla..dan qla akan mampu berdiri selepas jatuh... >_

Hoyeah...Ok..Aku Pening..Hahahaha~

2009-03-02T10:32:00.009+08:00

Okeh..semlam aku masak kek keju Oreo @ Non-baked Oreo Cheesecake..

Pergh..aku sangat teruje tahu..Aku selame ini, buat kek buah untuk nenek mase dekat2 Hari Raya..tapi sebab hari jadi mama 3.3, make idea songsang ini timbul dekat kepale macam mentol tergantong dekat atas =)

Ingat nak buat kek kentang..tapi..mama makan ke nanti..hahahaha..

Aku akan update lagi malam nanti sebab kek dah buat, tapi hasil tatao lagi..

Harap2 jadi lah..Oh yee..aku akan balik Penang Rabu ini..

P/S - Kepade teman serumah yang aku cintai Teha..aku dapat tahu kau nak jalan2 mase aku pulang Penang yeh? Boleh..tapi dengan satu syarat..ehem2..KAU TINGGAL SATU KELAS MINGGU INI, KENSEL!!!..sekian, terime kasih..=)

Out~

Saya Pulang~

2009-02-20T23:01:00.003+08:00

Wahhhhh!!!!

Dah lamenye aku tak membuat post..sebulan lebih rasenye..dalam sebulan sejak kebelakangan..banyak sangat bende berlaku..

MEMANG BANYAK OK ^____^

1. Aku mule bekerje dekat Sushi King
2. Aku jatoh sakit (nanti aku cerite mase post seterusnye)
3. Aku masok hospital (yehh, ini pon berkaitan dengan nombor 2)
4. Aku bertukar sebanyak 2 hospital dalam mase 10 hari (sangatlah sakit jiwe -___-)
5. Aku di beritahu menghidapi penyakit yang sudah di tahap kronik (aku nak mati dengar ini)
6. Aku menjalani pembedahan
7. Aku kene dudok hospital 10 hari (lame gile weeeh...boleh repot)
8. Aku tak dapat keluar rumah (nanti luke berdarah..maka, aku terputos hubungan dengan dunie luar)

Ok,itu lah sebabnye aku tidak membuat sebarang post..

Doakan aku sembuh cepat ok..aku dah naik reput kat dalam rumah!!!!!!!!!!

^______________^

Out~

Tergolek Golek~

2009-01-22T20:31:00.001+08:00

Bosan..hidop aku dah mule jadi sangat flat...

B.O.S.A.N

Haiiihhh~

Besok dah start kerje..kerje je lah...

Out~

Kerje..Kerje~

2009-01-20T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hari ini, aku ke kampus, isi borang untok kelas Mandarin..tapi tatao lah dapat ke tak..sebab kelas memerlukan 20 orang..baru cume ade 11 orang..haaaihhh...

Mase nak balik ke rumah, tergerak hati nak tepon Sushi King..tempat lame aku kerje..

''Hello..Kak Aida...ade kerje kosong tak lagi? Nak masok part time lah''

Alhamdulillah..tak sampai 5 menet aku dah dapat kerje..kebetulan masih ade lagi kekosongan..

Jadi, kene lah persiapkan diri untuk mule kerje Jumaat..

Out~

Jangan Ganggu Aku Mangkok~

2009-01-19T00:12:00.006+08:00

Kemarahan sangat membare..

Ok..aku sangat tak suke..SANGATLAH TAK SUKE bile orang yang aku cube untok berkawan (walaopon semue orang mengelakkan dari mendekati die..sebab die sangat menjengkelkan..ataopon saje berpure2 untok baik dengan die atas dasar simpati) nak korek segale masalah aku...

Aku dalam perjalanan ke kampus..tujuannye nak jumpe Cik Azuwa..sekarang dah jadi Puan Azuwa (tahniah atas perkahwinan cik...maaf tak dapat datang ye) kat tingkat 4 kampus..

Tetibe, dari ceruk alam mane entah..makhluk Allah ni datang menghampiri aku...ok la, more prone to hopping crazy towards me..KEPALEOTAK LAAAA!!!!

Aku dalam hati dah mengucap panjang..bertasbih semue sebab die dah panggil2 aku..

Sebab nak sopan, aku cakap aku ade kelas..

Sorry lah..aku malas nak layan kerenah kau..

Hohohohoho..kejam di situ...aku dah cukop banyak dose..tak perlukan kau untok menambah lagi dose aku..

Aku tak kacau tepi kain kau..kau jangan nak semak nak masok celah kain aku.. 0_____0

Cross the border line, your dead bitch

P/S - Cadang nak masok kelas Mandarin..harap2 ade lah kelas tu~

Out~

Selamat Datang Penang..Kembali~

2009-01-18T23:43:00.003+08:00

Aku dah balik Penang hari ini..woaahhh..seryes aku tak bawak langsong pon kerete..aku tak larat...

Sorry la Teha, ko bawak sepanjang jalan ..tapi satu la..memang cool gile..

Sebab dari Shah Alam ke Penang 3 jam je perjalanan...GILE LAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wahahahaha...Sebelum sampai rumah, beli karipap seringgit yang sebesar tapak tangan 4 bijik, dan air soya 2 bungkos..aku ngan Teha balik rumah..

Malas nak tules2 banyak2..Chalo dulu...

P/S - Makan tengahari dengan Teha dan Nadt di Seksyen 7 Baru belakang UiTM (Kedai Molek) memang besh gaban..woaaaahhhh~

Out~

Realiti Kehidupan~

2009-01-17T11:02:00.003+08:00

Pagi tadi, berjanji nak jumpe Encik Bob..die P.A merangkap god-father@rakan membuat kerje gile dan sebagainye...die cakap nak jumpe pukol 10 pagi..sebab aku terbangon pukol 7 pagi, aku golek2 lah lagi kat Mawar...sementare Nadt kelam kabot nak ke kelas..

Tetibe pukol 9 tu die menggelupor sms aku, cakap nak jumpe 9.30 pulak..

Alamaaaaaaaaaaaak!!! kelam kabot aku pergi bersiap, gosok baju (sampai terbakar cadar Nadt aku buat...maaaaaaf T_____T) dan gopoh2 berlari ke Foyer Elektrik..

Sampai saje kat sane, aku dah mengucap panjang...MANE TAK NYE!!!!!!!!!!!

Encik Bob tersengih2 kat aku, dengan helmet setengah die kat aku...

''Mane kerete Qla?''

Kepale laaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! aku mati2 ingat die bawak kerete..

Bagos sangat lah tue...die ingat aku bawak kerete, aku ingat die bawak kerete..

Hahahaha..nak tanak, aku kene lah pegi balik Mawar...Haaaiiihh...

Pergi Intec dengan die...nak tanye pasal TESL program untok foundation...

Habes saje setel smue bende, aku ke Low Yatt dengan B-chan..aku sangat batak sebab tak pernah pergi sane..dah lah pakai baju kurung.. =)

Balik dari sane, aku mandi2, pastu kuar semule dengan kengkawan pergi Pak Ali..

Nice..makanan die sedap..

So, bile aku balik dari segale aktiviti, aku dah melepek..penat siot..hahahaha~

Out~

Woaaaaaah~

2009-01-16T20:26:00.001+08:00

Try to listen
Try to try to silence when I try
To speak up to you..

Have you ever considered
When I need to speak my heart out?..

And when you speak
I always listen
So you would be at ease..

Who am I to u
Maybe the same as the rest
That you could do them..

And when you have no one to play with
You ran back to me
Thats what I am to you..

Try to see
Try to try to see into my eyes
When I stare still at you..

Have you ever been there
When I need to vent my inner frustration
And when you need to
I am here waiting
So that you'll feel at ease..

Im sorry Ive never thought of writing to you
Blame me
I would never ask for you to hear
Or for you to see into my eyes

Aku Pemalas~

2009-01-15T01:46:00.002+08:00

Aku baru sampai UiTM Shah Alam hari ini..penat nak mampos bawak kerete rupenye..

Owh..owh..ini first time aku bawak kerete sejauh ini..ditemani Teha..kami tukar2 bawak..

Nak aku bawak sorang? mati patah pinggang aku weh... T_T

Aku bawak dari Penang ke Jelapang..dari Jelapang ke Tapah Teha pulak yang bawak..pastu dari Tapah ke Sungai Buloh aku pulak..kemudian dari Sungai Buloh ke Shah Alam, Teha amik alih..

Ohh..Ohh..kitorang bawak Suden jugak..

Ingatkan nak tinggal si kenit tu..tapi sebab tibe2 die saket kaki (rupe2ye die tipu kitorang..btuah punye kucing...ces)

Hantar Suden pergi hostel kucing kat Seksyen 9 Shah Alam..nanti hari Ahad baru amik..naseb uncle yang jage kedai tue baik..senang hati sikit nak tinggal kan..

Sampai2 je bilik Nadt kat Mawar, aku kene maki berbakol2 dengan die..rindu aku agaknye..hahahaha..yang aku tak leh tahan gelak, tengok gambar die depan pintu lah..aku ingat budak baik mane..rupenye gambar Nadt mase zaman2 die suci..wahahahahaha ^-^

Ohh sebelom aku terlupe, Teha dengan Nadt ugot aku kaw2 suroh bawak router Zuhause..hahaha..dahtu? mestilah kene bawak kan..hehe..

Lepas mandi, aku teros melepek atas katil Nadt..tak larat ooohhh...B-chan ajak tengok bola, Man U lawan pukol 4 pagi..sorry lah dear..Im poofed..memang dah x larat..Teha steady je aku tengok..orang dah biase bawak jauh kan..lagipon Mawar ade aktiviti, jadi tak leh lah nak kuar, kang kantoi kitorang dudok setinggan dalam bilek Nadt..hahahaha..

Kakak bilik Nadt, Kak Siti baik orangnye..die belajar Degree Mechi part 3..mesti Nadt sekse tak dapat maki orang kan..sebab bilik die ade peraturan..NO MAKI-MAKI..hahahaha..hamek ko Nadt =)

Esok nak jumpe Encik Bob, nak setel kerje..nanti rajen tules lagi..

P/S - Banyak bende menarik berlaku tapi malas nak menaip..hahahaha =)

Out~

Jalan Cari Ape?

2008-12-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

Semalam aku tumpang tidor rumah Wanie, lepas hantar die balik Balik Pulau..Ye laahh, takkan lah aku nak bagi die balik sendiri kot..Punye la sesak jalan nak menghale ke jambatan..Kat situ je dah 2 jam aku sangkut..Nasib dah isik minyak sebelom bertolak..Aku dah agak dah..Ye laaah...petang nak Krismas kan..Mestilah smue yang nak menyambot berpusu last minute shopping, dengan yang nak pegi clubbing lagi..

Lepas saje jambatan aku dah tarik nafas lege..ye ke? Aku silap besar laaahhh...Oh ye..aku angkot Suden sekali...hahaha..macam bawak anak ke hulu hilir..ye laah, takkan aku nak tinggal die kat rumah..sape nak bagi die makan minom..

Aku tatao sangat jalan nak menghale ke Balik Pulau jadi, Wanie kecoh lah mengajar aku..hahaha..sampai je jalan nak masok (okey, lebih kepade naik laa) Balik Pulau, aku dah mengucap panjang..

Gile laaaaa...curam habis bukit die...45 darjah sampai kot..terok jugak aku tekan minyak kerete..sian Apple-chan...aku tengok RPM kerete dah nak sampai 4..aku dah gelabah..
Tak pernah samai 4..punye la curam bukit...aku bawak cepat2, bace doa banyak2 dan naseb baek sampai jugak rumah Wanie..huuuu..lege~..

Sampai je rumah Wanie, mak ayah die sambot dengan sangat baik..diorang pon suke Suden..lege aku..rumah Wanie memang besh..suasane kampung, aku suke...dengan pokok kelapenye, dengan bintang2 penoh waktu malam..aku bukan lah jakun sebab x penah pegi kampung, tapi, memang susah nak jumpe keadaan macamtu kat JB..

Suden dah gembire golek2 atas pasir luar rumah Wanie..batak habes kucing tu..hahaha..ye laahh...rumah sewe aku pangsapuri, mane ade pasir sangat =)...jenoh jugak aku dengan Wanie nak kejar die masok semule rumah..hahaha..punye lah die bercinte dengan pasir tue..

Malam Krismas tue, lepas mak ayah Wanie tidor, aku dengan Wanie tengok cerite hantu kat Astro, pastu tengok AFC pulak sampai 3, 4 pagi..saje teman die tunggu call boyfriend die =)..

Esok harinye, aku kene balik semule, tapi sebelum tue, kami rancang nak pegi Queensbay Mall..
Tapi sebab ramai sangat orang, kitorang pegi Gurney Plaza..

Aku naik feri balik Mainland..tak larat nak drive..pinggang dah mintak nyawe..

Tetibe sampai saje rumah, aku dapat panggilan dari mama..

'' Mama dah kat Juru nie along ''

Argggghhhhhhhhhh...datang mengejot..mengapekah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, aku akan update kemudian hari selepas mereka pulang...

Kene pergi menyambot mereka..wahahaha

Out~

Wanie Yang Kelakar~

2008-12-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

Hahahahaha...

Saket perot aku gelak teguling2...

Dah lah gigi aku tengah saket..geraham baru nak tumboh..jadi bayangkan lah bile ketawe+sakit jadi ape...

Kawan aku sorang nih..Wanie namenye..telah membuat adengan yang aku tak sangke tadi..

(Perbualan sebenar yang berlaku di tempat kejadian)

Wanie : Qla, ''Im leaving on the jet plane'' tuh maksodnye ape?

Aku : Ohh..itu metafora aje..kire seseorang nak teroskan hidop die..

Wanie : Owwwhhhhh...

(Tibe2 aku teringat cerite Armageddon sebab ade satu bahagian gune lagu yang Wanie tanye)

Aku : Kau penah tengok tak cerite Armageddon tue? Sedeh weh..

Wanie : Umm..tak pernah lah (sambil buat muke blur2)

Aku : Sedeh weh..cerite pasal hero, heroine dan ayah heroine..dan mestilah...sebijik meteor yang bakal memenyek Bumi (sangat cliche~)..hero ngan ayah heroine kene naik angkase letopkan meteor tuh..pastu, mase akhir2, diorang kene undi sape kene tinggal nak picit butang nak letopkan meteor (mestilah orang yang tinggal tu bakal K.O)..sebnarnye, hero yang dapat..disebabkan hero dah janji ngan heroine nak kawen bile balik..dan kenangkan si heroine sangat sayangkan hero, si ayah heroine menukar secare pakse untok ganti tempat hero..dan akibatnye, meteor meletop, Bumi selamat dan ayah heroine mati..tapi ayah heroine sempat lah bercakap2 dengan anaknye sebelom same2 mati meletop dengan meteor..mase hero dan heroine kawen, sangaaaaaat sedeh...diorang letak dekat kerusi front seat (untok tetamu2 terhormat), gambar kawan2 ayah heroine yang mati same, dan mestilah gambar ayah heroine turot ade.. (aku bercerite dengan penooooooh semangat dan terlupe nak pndang muke Wanie)

(Habis saje aku cerite...aku tengok semule Wanie, die dah berjurai2 menanges 0__0)

Aku : Weh2..apesal kau nanges pulak nie? (aku dah tahan gelak mase tanye nih)

Wanie : Uuuuhh..sedeh cerite nye...walaopon kau cerite penoh semangat..tapi sedeh laa (sambil kesat2 air mate dengan baju)

Hahahahaha..aku dah gelak tak ingat dunie..cooooooooomel betol lah kau nih Wanie =)...

Itu belom tengok lagi ceritenye..Nanti mintak Ami carik cerite Armageddon bagi kau eh sayang ^-^..

P/S - Tak pernah aku cerite dengan bersemangat orang menanges.. ^-^ Hebat ..hebat~

Out~

Naik Penerbangan Seronok?~

2008-12-22T23:50:00.004+08:00

Ok..aku sangat letih..

Sebab itu post ini aku tulis sangaaat lewat.. 0___0

Penerbangan yang sepatutnye aku naik pukol 10.30 am KENE DELAY (wth) betol...ke pukol 3.55 pm...

Memang lah kalao diikotkan seronok..dapat luang lebih mase lagi dengan keluarge, dapat sambong tidor lagi, makan banyak2..

Tapi hakikatnye, adooooii..letih sangaaaaaaaaaaat nak tunggu kat airport lame2 (aku sangat benci menunggu +_+)

Jadi, pade pukol 3pm, aku dah sampai airport, kelam kabot nak check-in (kaunter nak check-in bag tutop 45 menet sebelom belepas)..

(Di bawah adalah perbualan sebenar dengan abang kaunter yang jage Air Asia ke Penang)

Aku : Abang, kenape flight delay? (bertanye dengan penoh teruje)

Abang Air Asia : Owhhh..ade masalah teknikel sikit dengan kapal terbang (sambil pandang muke aku sengih2)

Aku : Masalah teknikel? (sambil buat muke pelik2)

Abang Air Asia : Alah...takde pape pon..tangki kapal terbang pecah (dengan muke selambe tapi bercakap perlahan)

TANGKI KAPAL TERBANG PECAH KAU KATE TAKDE PAPE? WTH!!!!!!!!! 0___________0

Dulu pernah jugak kene sekali..tapi mase nak balik dari Penang ke Johor..sehari sebelom Raye Cine..

Aku DELAY kat airport Penang 6 JAM!!!! sebabnye? TAYAR KAPAL TERBANG TERCABOT..depan mate aku pulak tue..mane tak nye...kitorang dah nak naik dah -___-...kene lah tunggu..

Aku tengok, 14 penerbangan dekat JB semue delay..baik MAS, baik Air Asia..situasi yang same jugak bile aku tengok jadual penerbangan dekat Penang..ade yang sampai kene batal..kesian..

Aku pon rase semue penerbangan satu Malaysia dah haru biru sebab kapal terbang tangki pecah tue..haaaih..macamane lah diorang buat maintainance? Pelik betol...

Malas nak komen banyak2..tapi memang perjalanan sangaaaaaaat lame..Naseb baek ade orang amek..thanx dear =)

Balik rumah, buat ape yang patot, tak sampai pukol 12 am, aku dah melepek tertido..hahaha =)

Sape kate naik penerbangan tak penat? Lu memang gila..hahaha ^-^

Kehidupan Baru~

2008-12-21T03:19:00.003+08:00

Esok pagi, aku akan pulang ke Pulau Pinang untok menghabiskan perjuangan aku..

Ye..masih belom selesai...dan Insyaallah akan aku habiskan..

Mungkin, esok aku akan ceritekan pade mereka...

Kesudahannya? Aku tak tahu...

Aku dah redha..ape akan jadi..jadilah..berfikir banyak2 pon tak ade gunenye..

Aku cume nak ketenangan aku semula...dan lakukan yang terbaik..

Doakan aku berjaya mengahrungi semuanya..

Out~

Ke Hadapan Semue~

2008-12-20T14:43:00.003+08:00

Okeh2...cukop2 lah mase kecederaan/kemurongan atao pape saje istilah yang boleh di samekan..

Mase untok bangon dan tetapkan sasaran...

Penat pulak asek nak melepek atas katil dan buat2 tak tao..

Go qla go...kau leh buat punye lah..

Wahahaha ^-^

Out~

Kalau Kamu Tahu~

2008-12-19T03:00:00.002+08:00

(Post ditulis di dalam Bahase Inggeris untok lebih penghayatan)

People always asked me ''Why do you always write about pain, hurt and anger in your posts?''

The answer? Simple...
Its the only place I could turn to..
Its the only place I could seek comfort..

It hurts..
To not be able to say things I wanted to..
I intend to get all choked up..

I have..
People I love..
People I care..
But somehow..
I couldn't reach them when I wanted to..
Outcasted..

I let everyone down..
The pain..
Unbearable..
I couldnt accept the facts I failed them..

Busied myself..
Ignoring the pain..
Being in denial..
Im no different from the rest..

At one point, it hurts soo bad, that I wanted to stab myself..
Just wanting the pain to go away badly..
Nobody knew..

Sometimes, I wonder..
What was I trying to prove?
Honestly, I dont know..

A dear friend once asked ''Dont you feel anything? Why are you always smiling at hard times?''

Well, cause it hurts soo bad..
Tearing me apart inside..
I could only smile..
Hoping the pain would go away..

I guess..
Im at my turning point of my life..
To choose the paths I have to take..

Maybe..
Its best if I just dissapear..
It wouldn't be that much of a loss to anyone right?..

Nadt had finally fulfilled her dreams..
Teha has a supportive family..
Fares had proved his worthiness to himself...
Wanie has a loving and supportive guy..
Zunnur had finally redeemed himself..
Encik Bob got to further his career..
Pqa had been finally doing what she wanted most..
Ayep has a great school-life..
Mama and Ayah are doing great at work..
Nenek has good business these days..

What more could I ask for?
They're happy..
Im happy..
I envy them..
And yes, Im perfectly feeling blissfully happy for them..
Cause people I loved most, I cared most are happy..

Would they forgive me?
For dissapearing..
Leaving them behind?..

Reaching out..
Isnt easy..
Tried a few couple of times..
But..
Seems like it went unanswered..

If you care for someone..
Dont expect them to give back the same gesture you did for them..
Just be content the feeling grew in your heart..

That's what I learned..
I try hard not to complain..
Just taking it in..

I'll just have to improve myself..
Turning a new leaf?..
With no one..
Maybe..
Just maybe, that would work..

Im sorry I let you down..
Im sorry I lied to you..
Im sorry I mothered you around..
Im sorry I nagged at you..
Im sorry I missed you frequently..
Im sorry I made you angry..
Im sorry Im clueless..
Im sorry I argue with you..
Im sorry I cared for you..
Im sorry I stood beside you..
Im sorry I made decisions for you..
Im sorry I hugged you..
Im sorry I kissed you..
And..
Im sorry I loved you..

P/S - Wonder who could give me a loving hug? Need that badly =(

Out~

Deeper Converstaion~

2008-12-11T00:18:00.001+08:00

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And im learning you..

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you ..

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears and
Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I’d love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me..

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too..

Cinta Is Love~

2008-12-10T00:39:00.006+08:00

1.Have you ever been in love?
= Duh...of course~

2.How do you know its love?
= My palm starts to sweat and my heart feels like its going 2 explode..fuyoo~

3.What makes you fall?
= Umm..I fall regularly..hahaha..hobby =)~

4.What if your girlfriend/boyfriend is a bad kisser?
= Dont care..still love him~

5.What turns you on (at 1st sight)?
= The way he smiles and acts sincerely~

6.Are you the jealous type?
= Mediocre..If im jealous, I'll ask him nicely, not visciously like a predator..haha~

7.Body or brains?
= Brains..hot body no brains? a goner la~

8.Do looks matter?
= Hey, I'd be lying if I say I like ugly..the point is, as long he's clean and well attired..thats enuff~

9.What turns you off?
= When he thinks he's soo damn smart and Im a bimbo with no brains..sick la~

10.The perfect date?
= Hanging out at the beach, a gig, or maybe just sitting together with ice cream~

12.Do you still believe in courtship?
= Somehow..yes..hahaha..Im an old tard~

13.Flowers or chocolates?
= Chocolates..white chocolates..not too sweet..waah..love them to death =)~

14.Kiss on the first date?
= On the cheek? Forehead? Humm..humm~
.
15.Sex on the first date?
= Im no whore..get it?~

16.What would you do if you find out that your girlfriend/boyfriend is cheating on you?
= Play along and see how the story goes..im no drama queen =)~

17.Have you ever cheated on someone?
= Never..can't bear myself to do so~

18.Fling or long term relationship?
= Fling? No way..~

19.What do you think of holding hands in public?
= Sweet and cute~

20.What do you think of kissing in public?
= Its not appropriate meh..I mean..do it somewhere else..this is Malaysia for crying out loud~

21.What if your girlfriend/boyfriend is a smoker?
= He's big enuff to think..im not going to brag about it~

22.Ever fell in love with your girlfriend?
= Love as in sisterly? Yes? Im straight ok =)

23.What would a girl/guy have to do to win your heart?
= Sincere, honest, loyal..easy right? =)

24.Love song?
= Umm..Deeper Conversation by Yuna..has a very deep meaning to the song =)~

25.Sad love song?
= Sacred by Tokio Hotel..the words are soo tragic =(~

Hummm~

2008-12-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

Hari ini, posting akan di dalam english..so, live with it~

Guys hate sluts even though
they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you’re not "popular" if
you’ve slept with more than 6
guys..you’re a WHORE)

–Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

–Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

–Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

–Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

–Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they’re still loved.

–Don’t talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

–Guys get jealous easily.

–Guys are more emotional than they’d
like people to think.

–Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh…nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he’ll
assume he did something wrong and
he’ll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

–Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

–A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

–Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

–Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

–Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy’s confused, then
we’re all confused.

–When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he’s just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

–If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn’t happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something’s up.

–If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you’re with your boyfriend, he’s
probably jealous and likes you.

–When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don’t say you aren’t. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don’t want you to
disagree with them.

–When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he’s definitely
thinking something.

–Guys don’t like girls who punch
harder than they do.

–A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

–Don’t be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

–Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

–Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

–If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don’t say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren’t interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

–Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

–When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.

So? What do you think?

Out~

Kepenatan~

2008-12-07T20:06:00.002+08:00

Perghhh...aku baru sahaje pulang dari ambil adik aku, Pqa dari MMU Cyberjaya...

Sebab fakulti die agak cetek pikiran untok buat midterm pade malam jumaat, adik aku tiade bas mahu pulang ke rumah untok sambot raye haji..

Jadi, pade pkol 5 pagi, aku bertolak keluar rumah, dan sampai di sane dalam pukol 12 tengahari..agak lewat sebab berheti makan sarapan dan tidor2..

Selepas ambil die, teros patah balik Jb...sebab tidak mahu buang mase..

Agak nak patah jugak pinggang bawak kerete..

Aisshhh...ini kalao kate aku tak sayang jugak kat kau, aku memang sekeh2 kepale kau..hahaha =)

Tak ape..yang penting semue selamat...

Welcome home Pqa...

Out~

Rindu~

2008-12-05T15:30:00.002+08:00

Aku rindu Suden..huhuhuhu...

Nanti saye ambil kamu semule dari airport ok sayang..

Out~

Haaaih~

2008-12-04T15:18:00.002+08:00

2, 3 hari kebelakangan asik hujan memanjang....tensen aku..tatao nak tulis ape..

Tengah memikirkan nak tulis post dalam english balik..ke melayu?

Humm...humm..ade idea tak?

Out~

Karangan Aku~

2008-12-03T02:03:00.001+08:00

The downfall of someone..
Doesnt mean the end of her..

It might be the rebirth..
Or..
It might be the death of her..

As she stood on the cliff of her life..
She stared sky up to the blank pages of her life..

Pondering..
Wondering..
Sighing..

She watched him go by past her..
Silence..
Turning around..
She was only greeted by his back..
Walking away..

The girl wanted to cry..
Wanted to scream..
Wanted to runaway...
Wanted to breakdown..

But she's unwilling to do so..
Because, she knows, people that cares..
Would be sad because of her..
Would cry because her..

So, she puts up a brave front..
Do silly things..
Tells stupid jokes..
And smiles widely for them..

As her life starts to crumble..
The girl stood silently..
Watching her life fall apart..
What would she do?
Too much chaos in her life..

The girl just stood there..
Too frightened to look back..
Too scared to move on..

Will her decisions backfire again this time?
She won't know..
She wouldn't know..
Unless she decides to get through it..
Or runaway..

As the pieces of rubbles falls onto her..
She decides not to runaway...
As it hits her..

Tears streams down her face..
Blood oozes from her bleeding heart..
Trying to seek some sort of calmness from all of it..

And she snaps into reality..
Dusting herself up..
She decides to walk on..
Moving on with her life..

The bruises will heal..
The pain will go away..
But the scars would be there with her..
Forever..
As a reminder of her actions..

She walks towards the light..
Smiling to herself..
The decision she chooses..
The consequences she would face..
Everything's going to be alright..

The downfall of her..
Seems to be the birth of her new self..

She had found her peace..
Finally..

Out~

Tag Bersama

2008-12-01T10:45:00.003+08:00

Kene tag dengan Nadt

The last person to tag you was ?
= Nadt

2. Your relationship with him/her ?
= Housemate, best friend, crime partner

3.Your 5 impressions towards him/her ?
= Protective
= Loyal
= Easy going
= Trust worthy
= Kind

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?
= Menggile bersame2...lalalala~

5. The most memorable words that he/she has said to you ?
= Oii bongok, jom makan..hahahaha~

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
= Lemaskan diri dalam laut..hahahaha~

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...
= Tidak mungkin kot..hehehehe~

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on....
= Umm...I dunno

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
= Dunie mau kiamat lah~

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her are..
= Be her best friend~

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
= Gile habis~

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?
= Cool lah kot..hahaha~

13. Who is your ideal ?
= My mama~

14 What do you hate about yourself ?
= Terlalu blur2..ahahaha~

15. For the people who care for you and like you
= Terime aku seadenye okeh~

16. People to tag answer:
= Husna

Out~

Lalalalala~

2008-11-26T15:19:00.004+08:00

Aku kene tag lagi..sape lagi yang tag aku kalao tak si Nadt...So..aku kene la buat jugak kan~

Rules:* Link to your tagger and post these rules on your blog.* Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.* Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.* Let them know they are tagged by leaving comment on their blog..

1. Hitam

Tatao nape, tapi dari dulu lagi, aku sangat kagum dengan warne ni..sampaikan pelamin kawin aku pon aku mimpi2 nak warne hitam..tapi mestilah bile aku suarekan pendapat tu aku kene maki..biasenye akakn berbunyi begini...'kau bangang ke ape qla? tu majlis kawen la..bukan orang mati'..respon aku? gelak aje la..hahaha..

2. Alat Muzik

Walaopon aku takde latar belakang muzik, atau pegi kelas ke ape, aku cepat belajar..aku sempat belajar kejap je mase aku masok pancaragam sekolah dulu..tu pon blajar curik2..huhuhu..aku sempat belajar main drum (dengan drum major aku yang macho) dan guitar bass (x sempat nak belajar habes, kantoi dengan mama..aissshh...perempuan katenye...x elok belajar..MENGAPEKAH!!)..mungkin aku ade peluang, aku teringin habiskan..buat mase sekarang..nantilah~

3. Makan

Aku hantu makan..kalao aku rase saket jiwe ke, tensen ke, marah ke, tekanan ke..aku akan makan..makan yang sangat melampao2...paling dasat yang aku penah ingat aku makan, mase tu lepas hari sukan mase sekolah menengah, aku kalah olahrage 3000m, aku makan French Fries Mcd sorang2 dalam kuantiti yang sangaaaaaaaaaaaat banyak...berape? 14 kot...gile kan? tapi sumpah xnak buat lagi mcmtu...overdose kot~ bodoh nye aku time tu...

4. Apple-chan

Aku sayang betol Savvy aku..suke lepak bersame2, bawak laju2 besame2, eksiden pon same2..hahahaha..name kerete aku, Apple, melekat sampai sekarang, sebab Fares yang namekan die...comel kan? Oh ye, kerete aku warne hijau epal..mungkin sebab tu kot..takpe lah..dari takde name...sekurang2nye kerete aku ade name..x pelik kan? hehehe..

5. Lepak

Aku suke melepak dengan clan aku, yang terdiri dari, Nadt, Fares, Teha..selalu race dengan Waja Fares, Wira Teha, diiringi jeritan dari si penumpang Nadt..hahahaha..seronok..tak tipu...~lalalalala

6. Kerje gile

Ayah aku, sangat takot dengan anak perempuan die ni..sebab antare adik beardik aku, aku lah yang paling 3 suku....aku pernah terjun dari tingkat 6 hotel, ke dalam swimming pool yang berade di tingkat 3, semate2 kerana RM10 (aku memang bangang gile mase tu..hahaha)..tao nak seronok aje...oh ye..aku tatao berenang pulak tu...qla memang gile..naseb kau x mati time tu...lalalala~

7. Dibuli

Aku memang mangse buli...aku buli orang? alamatnye nak kiamat la dunie..tapi kalao aku dapat bahan nak buli memang besh la...aku punye lah lurus bendul, memang selalu kene tipu..haaaaih..takpe2..aku kan cool..jadi x kesah la sangat..lalalala~

Out~

Bosan~

2008-11-24T15:14:00.002+08:00

Paper finals sudah habes...dan aku mulai kebosanan

Dah la router Vodafone tu buat hal...

Bankrup lah asek nak pegi cc je..

Mangkok ayon betol..

Haiiihh...

Naseb badan~

Out~

Pemalas~

2008-11-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

Aku yang pemalas...

Sangat tension nak update blog sebab router aku mengong...

Bengang nye aku...masok hari ini, dah seminggu internet down...aiseh~

So, menggelupor aku cari2 interent...

Nanti bile internet aku dah ok, baru lah aku rajen nak update ye...

Out~

Aiyooo~

2008-11-01T10:27:00.003+08:00

Musim exam datang lagi..

Semalam paper KEE 212, Electronics 2..perghh....susah gile~

Bak kate pepatah 'fucker abes'..aiyooo~

Dah lah bagi pembetulan setengah jam sebelom abes mase..

Kepale otak la..mane sempat aku nak buat..

Abes pulse diagram aku..abes truth table aku..

Fuck..fuck..fuck...

Ahad paper ETR 300 pule...aiseh...x blajar pape lagi..

Ari ini..B ade paper Digital System, KEE 222..gud luck lah babe..

P/S - Tetibe tatao nak buat ape..wtf?!...

Out~

Angel~

2008-10-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

Just like a shadow
I’ll be beside you
I’ll be your comfort

I’m there to guide you home
I will provide you
A place of shelter

Tell me what you wanted me to do
I’ll make you great to be a man
With a woman who can stand
On every promise given
Making vows to please her man

Just like the moon
I’ll step aside
And let your sun shine
While I follow behind

You deserve all the props
With everything I’m not

Tell me why there’s so many good men
And the world misunderstood

He’s a dog, he’s no good
I wish somebody would
Disrespect my man
You’re going to have to come see me

I go hard for my baby
He’s all that I need

If I could be your angel
Protect you from the pain
I’ll keep you safe from danger
You’ll never hurt again
I’ll be your angel

P/S - Love the words~

Out~

Kepedihan~

2008-10-29T00:03:00.003+08:00

Aku keliru sangat..

Kenape baru sekarang semuenye x kene?
Kenape aku rase kau tengah membandingkan aku dengan die?
Selame lame ini, kau x penah kesah pon?
Ke aku yang ngade2 sensitif?

Aku x minta dipuji...
Aku x minta ditatang..
Cume hormatlah aku sebagai seorang perempuan...
Makin lame, gurau2an kamu semakin kasar..

Aku tahu, rakan2mu memandangku sinis pade aku..
Mengetahui kamu ade selain aku..
Aku x mampu berkate ape2..
Hanye tersenyum sayu..
Nilai diri aku hilang di mate mereka..

Aku terdiam kaku..
Apabile tahu mereka sedar ape yang berlaku..
Dan bile aku ketahui siape dalang yang menyebarkannye..
Aku hanye mampu mengalirkan air mate kekecewaan..
Kerane aku tahu kau x akan percaye jike aku meluahkannye..

Kadang2, aku sendiri terpinge2 status aku dalam hidop kamu..
Aku cume 'supporting actress' sahaje kah?..

Tahu kah kamu...aku sangat sunyi...
Aku cume mampu tersenyum pedih sahaje..

Nampakkah kau, aku sedang menunggu kamu?
Tapi kau hanye melihat aku sahaje..
Dan aku hanye mampu tunggu dan tunggu...
Aku rindu kamu..sangat..sangat...

P/S - A finale ending without me included in it~

Out~

Panas nye~

2008-10-28T00:28:00.004+08:00

Malam ini sangat panas..rase macam nak tido dalam bilik air saje..

Uhuhuhu (T_T)..

Dah 3 hari Penang x hujan...

Nape..nape..nape...

Hujan~...turonlah...aku janji x mao merungot sejok lagi...

X larat nak mandi banyak2 kali...

Hari ini saje dah 3 kali mandi..melambong lah bil air bulan ini..uhuhuhu...

Nak tido..tapi panas sangat...bukak kipas kelajuan sampai 3 pon macam angin sepoi2 bahase..

Aiseh~...

P/S - Ade sape2 nak join tido dalam bilik air? Sejok dan nyaman..huuu~

Out~